Kians pov
JC went out of the 100 time this week. I started to get worried, he wasn't himself anymore.
He didn't say anything to me anymore, if he did it was
"Babe I'm tired please no"
"Kian stop!"
I hated it I wish he could be the same JC he was before. I wanted to tell him to stop but I know he would just say sorry. ( sorry I had to) But I don't care I had to get out.
I changed into my clothes and left the house. Not planning to come back, I packed a bag and left the house leaving a note saying
'Dear Jc
I'm sorry I'll be back i don't know when but I just need some space. If you want to know why think really hard, cause its pretty obvious. Espically when ur yelling at me. See you soon maybe.
Love kian'
I got into a cab and drove to the nearest hotel. I opened the door and dropped to my knees and cried. I was honestly scared of life. Nothing was right.
I guess old habits die hard. That is unless your me. I silently walked over to the bathroom found a razor and started to cut my wrist.
Jc's POV
I unlocked the door to the apartment to no sound. "Kian?!" I called but no sound. I shrugged and thought he was asleep. So I walked into the kitchen to find a note.
I read it and started to think about what he meant. I then realized what he meant
~flashback~
"KIAN WOULD YOU QUIT?!" I yelled at him and saw pain in his eyes. I immediately regretted my words. He nodded and went into the bedroom.
I sighed and sat on the couch crying. I sat there thinking about him. He was my world what was I doing. I got up and walked to the door and opened it. There sat a sad kian with his headphones in and playing with his ring that I got him.
I smiled and kissed his cheek he flinched and saw me. He gave a fake smile and said hi.
I love you kian.
~flashback over ~
I was crying so bad I was so scared to losing him. I quickly grabbed my phone and called kian. No answer.
I quickly gabbed the vodca and drank it all. It burned but I didn't care. I texted kian partly sober and said
'I want you and need you baby ❤'
Another bottle down, I smiled and laughed I walked over to the couch with a new bottle in my hand. "I love kian" I smiled.
I texted him again and said
'Babbby please I need my kiki '
I cried a bit and sighed.
Here's to another mistake, I thought and drank the bottle.
Kians POV
JC texted me 2 times but I never answered. I stared at my cuts that were dripping blood. There were a lot but I didn't care.
I started to bandage them up and wash them. When I heard a knock on the door. I silently pulled down my long sleeve and went to open the door
There stood a woman who looked familiar but I didn't know her. I smiled as he handed me a tray off food and smiled.
Its weird how his smile made me smile. I guess people smile to brighten moods? Him who knew?
I chuckled, ate my food and went back into the restroom. I opened the cabinet to see a first aid kit. There was a bottle of pain killers, and a bottle of rubbing alcohol.
I took the bottle and poored it on my cuts. I screamed in pain as it touched them. I stopped and cried as I missed jc.
I slowley went to my phone and say 10 new messages from jc
'I want you and I need you baby ❤'
'Babbyy please I need my kiki'
'I love this boy named kiam Lawley'
'❤ MY BABY *picture attachment*'
'Kiki baby boy. I love you so much'
' your so cute I made a good choice'
'I.love.Kian.Robert.Lawley. '
'Please kian don't ignore me '
'Kian I need you '
'Goodnight baby I wish u were here laying with me '
I smiled locked my phone and drifted to sleep.
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IM SORRY IM SORRY IM SORRY.
I suck at updating fast. But here's a new chapter and sorry for all the depperession parts.
I hope you guys enjoyed that depperessed chapter. I'll make a happy one when I update next.
I promise to try and update faster. Sorry again guys. So do me a favor and
Stay awesome ✌
