Sugar & Scars || Taekook ff

Chapter 11: A pinch of Dilemma

Author pov:

“Dilemmas are the worst ,

Because it makes you think of your wants as your needs ,

And your needs as your misconceptions.”

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The feeling of guilt after doing something irrational is something most people face when they realise it's something wrong which they have committed. But there are few people who don't care about it.

It doesn't affect them much although it's quite disturbing in a sense where you can't sleep at night only because of those thoughts which are revolving in your mind.

But the question is, does everyone face this?

And the answer is No.

Not everyone faces a problem even if they realise they are wrong. Mostly they would shrug it off and move on with their life but there are some people who overthink , who think about the things which they do or would do or which happened with them all the time.

And even then , they have nowhere to go and repent for their mistakes. Simply because they don't know how to do it. However Jungkook falls in these categories of people. He would make a mistake and  then he will overthink until his brain can't think anymore.

That's why sitting on the rooftop of his mansion Jungkook admired the moon from down and thought over his behaviour with the silver haired guy from the morning. He wasn't so proud of himself after he realised he made a grave mistake by lashing out on Taehyung for no proper reason.

However he can't seem to regret his actions fully. Because either way he was going to push taehyung away no matter what , considering the silver haired guy has been taking over his and Ha-ri's mind a lot lately.

Jungkook can't afford any other person in his or his daughter's life anymore. He had enough of those quota in this life. But for some reason it pained him to push taehyung away , perhaps it was the guilt of his behaviour which was disturbing him.

But whatever it was , Jungkook wasn't so happy with it.

"Pops?" Comes the soft voice from behind as Jungkook hummed when he felt two little hands of his daughter curling around his neck from behind.

"What does my princess want?" Jungkook questioned pulling the girl forward and settling her on his lap. Just like any other day , they both sat under the darkness of night and gazed at the brightest star intensely until the little girl broke the silence.

"Can you thake Ha-ri to the cafe tomollow? Ha-ri wanth to meet Gojo." Jungkook felt pang of guilt in his heart as he stared down at the girl's face for longer than intended. The fact that he had snapped at taehyung rudely and harshly he wasn't sure if the younger one would even visit him the next day or not. So with a heavy heart and lump on his throat Jungkook opened his mouth to answer.

"I'll baby." Jungkook agreed maybe just maybe taehyung would visit him once again even after all of these. Ha-ri squealed loudly in her pops arms, so excited for tomorrow that she even forgot to kiss her father good night when she ran off to her room.

Meanwhile Jungkook was making up his mind to apologise if and if only the younger would visit the cafe tomorrow. But the problem is he doesn't even know how he was going to do it.