The unforbidden love.

Im so ashamed.

Tw- suicidal thoughts!

Mia's Pov-

Her hands are so soft and she hasn't let go the whole drive, it turns out she actually lives really close to me. It's only a five minute walk.

We arrive at her house and it's very cute. Exactly her aesthetic. As she gets out and starts walking around to my side of the car my phone pings, it's Roger, I should really block him and delete his contact but I'm scared of what he will do.

R- you pathetic little whore, you make me sick. You will NEVER be good enough for anyone. You piss me off so much. And don't forget NO-ONE will ever love you. You disgusting little bitch.

I'm used to this now but even when he says it over and over again it still hurts like a thousand knives getting stabbed into my body. I mean he was right no one would love me and I am disgusting. Maybe it would be better if I just left after all. Charlotte was only helping me for her own good not for my sake.

She opens the door to me crying head in hands, "oh Mia sweetheart what is it come on let's get you out into the warmth." She's so sweet and gentle. Amelia stop thinking so loves you she never will.

I get out the car shaking, I'm scared. I'm scared for what Roger will do. Or worse what I will do to myself. Charlotte unlocks the door and tells me to go sit on the couch and find something to watch, whilst she makes me something to eat and drink. Truth be told I wasn't hungry or thirsty. And I didn't want to watch anything. I just wanted to sit and stare at the same spot on the wall. Feel numb for a bit.

She walks back in with a glass of water, a mug of hot chocolate and some food. I was flat out on the couch, asleep. I was so drained and the only way I can't think is sleeping or better, being dead.

She slowly wakes me up and tells me to come get changed and that I can lay in her bed if I needed to, so I wasn't alone.

I liked being alone, just not alone with my feelings. And luckily for me I won't have to be soon.

M- actually charlotte, I'm sorry but is it okay if I go home tonight?
C-of course I'm not going to force you but first let me put my number in your phone incase you ever need someone.
M- thank you Charlotte, really for everything, no one has really ever been like this with me before.

She hugs me and I turn around to make my way home.

C- honestly Mia, please just ring or text me I don't want you doing something that you may regret. I love you."

I turn around and give her another hug quickly but I couldn't resist I pull her in and give her a kiss.

What the fuck have I just done. What is wrong with me
Before she could utter another word I run out of the house ashamed of what I've just done. This was another reason of my soon to be death.

A/N - I'm sorry this is so short.