Glory in War [EDITED VERSION - SHORTER CHAPTERS]

Chapter 29.2

6 YEARS AGO

15.06.1637

16:41

"...Each time I see a mist... it reminds me of how useless I am... of how useless I was when they needed me the most.

...Each time I see smoke though... it reminds me of how much my life has changed over the years. From a little boy that was running each day of his life... to a warrior that seeks revenge for the people he had lost. And yet... I am still not enough to make them proud, even after all those years.

I despite fire... even if I use it almost every day now. Fire took everything I had that day, whether it was by a gun or a simple small tool. Yet I'm still questioning myself... why do I use this small tool so frequently if it is the same tool that took even the last thing I had?"

There is a small memory of the little Six, crying around a dead corpse, that we've already witnessed.

[630G]-...FOUR!! WAKE UP FOUR!! FOUR, DON'T YOU DARE DIE ON ME TOO!! FOUR!!!

"Why do I... still like to use this fire that it makes, even after everything I've witnessed? Is it truly the ore that makes me addicted to it because of its calming effect? ...Or is it something that I didn't find about myself? Or maybe..."

And it doesn't take long before the memories cuts to the point on which the corpse is on fire, while the two figures stay next to it, watching it burn.

"...do I really like watching this smoke it creates after? Like I used to watch when this whole incident happened? If so... why do I like it so much? It only hurt me, and it will always hurt me each time I remember, so why would I like it so much?"

[CHE5TER]-...C0NNER! C0NNER, pay attention!

Yet the memory fades, as we found ourselves somewhere in the past after the whole incident happened, where young CHE5TER is looking at little "C0NNER".

[CHE5TER]-C0NNER!!

["C0NNER"]-...H-Huh?

[CHE5TER]-*sigh* You want me to call you "Six" or what?? What should I do to make you pay attention to me when we are training?

["C0NNER"]-O-Oh... u-um... Sorry, Mr. CHE5TER. I-I wasn't... My mind was somewhere else.

Yet CHE5TER seems a bit annoyed by this response for some reason.

[CHE5TER]-C0NNER, everything that happened is in the past now! It's been two days already! You have to learn to move on!

["C0NNER"]-I-I know, I just... I-I'm just...

Yet the kid seems sad, almost as if he wants to cry. CHE5TER doesn't seem to be the best master in these times either.

[CHE5TER]-...You know what? Just forget it... Go take a break for a while and we will continue a bit later. But please! Pay attention to me! I didn't take you for nothing, kid!

The kid doesn't say anything, he only looks ashamed at the ground, while the young ruler leaves the training room and lets him alone. He is pretty upset, actually, and while he is alone, he just goes to a wall and sits down, taking his rest.

But it seems like tears come from his eyes, yet he wipes them out immediately with his right hand, refusing for some reason to cry. But it doesn't seem as he can control these feelings of his either, as he sobs a little while wiping his tears. So, in order to stop himself from this, he looks around the room to analyse it better this time. Yet he notices a desk on which there are all kind of weapons, so by pure curiosity, he gets up and wipes his tears for the last time, before he goes towards the desk.