I could never learn to Love another

Memories burried deep withhin

The night was cold, so was the Air flowing into her room. She cuddled into her blanket as her Alarm started to Ring into her ear. "Mmmhhh" the Girl groaned as she Shit it Off. Her Body felt more heavy as she sat Up in her bed. Her Hair was a mess, Strands of Hair either Standing Out of sticking to her face. For a while she sat there without Motion, trying her hardest Not to Fall Back asleep.

Some time after she reached for her Phone and picked it up, before getting Out of bed. She walked to the living room. Her steps were quiet, since her Family was still asleep. She walked into the kitchen and turned on the Coffee machine. She then threw her Phone onto the dining table while passing it to reach the balcony door. The cool fresh Air tickled her skin as she opened the balcony door.
She quietly moved Back to the kitchen when she realized that her Coffee was done. She poured the Coffee into her mug, before adding a teaspoons of sugar and some Milk. She stirred the liquid and Set the mug down at the table. She Had gotten the mug a few years ago, 'I Drink Coffee to keep you safe' was written on it. She Made herself comfortable on one of the chairs as she took a Long sip from her Drink. Next to her was a small Paket, filled with cigarettes. She Toom it, grabbed one and lit it.

The Smoke escaped throught her nose as she took another sip of her Coffee. After a small while she grabbed her Phone, where she started to Look through her social Media. "Nothing new Happening. Besides Ari and Mei acting Like I dont exist, great", Ari, Mei and her used to be Friends Just Last year. But ever since she changed Major, they started to forget about her. They didnt even ask If they wanted to hang Out together, they didnt even Text her.

Once her Coffee was empty she refilled it and sat down again. The moon was still Out with No sun in Sight. As she took another sip she got a Message from her teacher, See, they have a Sort of group where the teacher would Put infos, Homework and so on.
'Good morning, I wouldnt be coming today as I have gotten sick overnight. The classes will be canceled. But please do send me the Homework until today and Finish Reading the book and do Page 50-52 in your book.
With Love,
Your teacher'

"Sick? Seriously? When I'm sick they dont give a Shit and Tell me to do my Work anyway. So why the hell is she getting to stay Home." She asked herself "also. Seriously? I could have slept in so much longer." At this Point the groaned, feeling pissed that the teacher bailed on them when she Had already gotten Up.
"Assholes..." She muttered before lighting another cigarette

A certain time later she was sitting on her bed, dressed in her pj's with her iPad in her hands. She was doing the assignments her teacher gave her. She still Had time until she Had to leave, so she took the morning slow.
Once that was done she went and got ready. Usually she was too lazy to Take a shower, but this time she took one as she Had enough time and was awake enough.
The water felt good on her skin and hair, she washed herself Well before turning Off the shower and getting Out. She got dressed, brushed her teeth and dried her Hair.

"Cant wait to be Home by dark again" she muttered as she packed her bag for school. Maybe she should leave earlier to Grab some Breakfast and another Cup of coffee somewhere. With a plan in mind and No Motivation she stepped Out of the door and locked it. She started to Walk as she he Had Put her Headphones on and played music.
She Loved music, it helped her Express. It helped her Show her emotions. She usually day Dreams while listening to certain Songs. She Likes it. She Likes beeing able to be free in her Land of fantasies. There she is free, and away from daily struggles, pain and whatever else. There she can be herself and live the Life she Always dreamed Off. It wasnt to be famous, or rich. No. It was to be Happy with her ex-best friend. To be Friends with her again.
It never helped her that she would See the Girl so often on her way to school. Her mood Always got worse when she saw the Girl she longed for. Guilt was eating her from the inside Out everytime.