Should Have Known Better(COMPLETE)

chapter 1

*I can't keep doing this,I can't keep doing this* I said over and over again in my head

I'm sitting in the living room on the sofa in the dark looking at the clock waiting on my so called boy friend to come home

It's been like this every since I got pregnant with our twins boys Karen and Kaden.

When I was pregnant with the twin he was really never around and when he was he always come home smelling like the next bitch he never really help me took care of our kids he always say "I'm paying the bills right that's good enough"

I feel so stupid cause I know he was cheating on me then but I just thought he would change I thought it was cause of me cause since the twins had be born I have gain allot of weight I was knock out my train of thought by the front door slamming

"Where the fuck you been Devon"I said cutting the lamp on by the sofa so he could see me

"Look don't start this shit I'm grown ass man I can do what the fuck I want so don't start questioning me" he said kicking his Tim's off at the door going up stairs

"Just tell me who the fuck the bitch is" I said trailing behind him when we made it to our room I close the door behind us so the twins wouldn't wake up

"Man here we go with this shit the bitch I'm fucking is you Mia" he told me taking of his clothes throwing them in the dirt clothes basket

"What the fuck is this on your shirt in why do it smell like unsanitary pussy Devon"I said picking up his shirt looking at all of the lip stains then the damn shirt stank like hell

"Mia I'm tell you this one time before you really make me do something I will regret take your ass go to bed right now" he said giving me that look that always make me get scared in back down but not tonight

"ARE YOU FUCKING AROUND ON ME DONT LIE CAUSE YOU CAME HOME SMELLING LIKE THE NEXT BITCH" I yell with my fist balled up ready to swing and knock his ass clean out if he say the wrong thing

He stared walking up to me I got scared but I wasn't about to back down. When he got close enough I swong my fist hard as I could only for him to catch it. He slam me so hard on the wall that I started to get a headache from the impact but all that pain went out the window when I felt his hand grab my throat.

"Bitch I swear on my kids if you ever raise your hand to hit me again I'll be looking for another mother for my kids do you understand me Mia"he said looking me in the eyes. I shook my head up in down as fast as I could he sigh before letting me go I couldn't do nothing but sit on the cold floor crying trying to breathe

"Look I'm sorry I did--- I cut him short s-stay away from me" I said getting up running as fast as I could to my sons room

"Mia baby wait"I didn't even hear what he said cause I had close in lock the door to the twins room. I climb in the bottom bunk with Karen. I couldn't believe he put his hands on me.Our relationship just completely change every since the twin was born we use spend all our time in the morning making love in all our time at night cuddling in letting each other know how much we love each others it was like I was a crack head in he was the drug and I needed that drug so much it hurt. I was 19 when we meet in 20 when the twins was born we haven't had sex since the twins was boring in that was like three years ago. I know y'all want to know how we met so this is how it went.

FLASH BACK

I was running around my small little one bed room apartment trying to find something cute to wear before the city bus left me so I throw on some black jeans with a blue shirt with my blue Tom's. I looked at my phone in sigh I only have 10 minutes to get there Shit I yelled running down into the kitchen grabbing a muffin in a water bottle I grab all my things I needed for college before locking the door in I was on my way to the bus stop.

"Where the fuck is the bus"I ask my self looking down at my watch on my wrist.
"It left like 5 minutes before you came ma"  I heard somebody say I turn to look at the person who the voice came from in almost feel of the bench

"You good ma" he said looking at me confused

"Yea Yea im fine"I said a little embarrassed

"So you coming or not" he said smiling with his hand out for me to take

"Where are we going" I ask looking around my surrounding so I wouldn't have to look at him

"Where ever you want to go" he said pulling me out of my set

"O-ok I'm Mia by the way" I said while he was leading me to his car

"I'm Devon" he said smiling opening the car door for me

FLASH BACK OVER

A tear slip from my eye thinking about all the good times we had and up to now. I would have never thought we would have ended up like this. I want to sleep knowing what I got to do when I get up in the morning. Which is packing my shit in leaving him for good.

(Devon at the top)