Mystical

Chapter-17 ( part-II )

Anya P.O.V

I was now sitting in the library of Ivar's castle . After I had a black out at the ceremony he flied us back to Russia where the fucker didn't wanted me to get out of sight for even one second . Rage like sun was burning me from inside even now while flipping the pages I was having carnal desires of drawing his blood and to bask in it . His kind took away everything from mine and now just I was healing putting my past behind me this nightmare started again . I wanted to kill him , to hear his heart stop beating but I can't kill a wolf especially while marked by one . One positive thing that came out of that fucking ceremony is that the mark is sated now and he cannot hear my thoughts but he can always mind link me . You must be wondering how can I stay calm after knowing all these years that I am sharing the same house food and even dependent on the animal who killed my mother . If living alone all these years had taught me one thing is that you do not strike when you are grieving and when anger takes control of you because you will fail and defeat is something I cannot fathom . I will bring justice to my mother's killer . I will make him pay . I will make him choke on his blood for doing all this I need to find his kind weakness . Even the strongest fort have an hollow wall was what my mother use to say . I need to find his hollow wall and when I will ; I will tear his castle apart , I will make him go down and for that I need to plan patiently . The library is the best place to look for it . I can see in his ever calculating gaze it took all my strength to convince him that I fainted due to stress and was fine now . It makes me laugh how can he act so humane with me as if he truly loves me the truth is his kind is genetically wired for this mating bond shit by there  so called goddess mine isn't . It makes me feel sick to breathe same air as him . All these years I wanted nothing but just to left to exist in peace but no this mystical world no longer works in the favour of humans it doesn't listens to our pleas of mercy as it is ruled by those who are full of themselves who boast of there values and look down upon our human system of existence as if they didn't hide like a damn coward for centuries waiting for the perfect time to strike . I was now reading war documents though I made sure that Ivar cannot see me that's why I am reading the documents secretively according to him it is too gore for me . It makes me wonder how history can be changed so easily the documents are botched they tell the stories differently they make humans the villains but I will be longer be blinded by it.  I see right through it the fake condolence speeches of the leaders the fake treaties it's all a facade . In the name of co - existence they rule over us . The real power remains with them while humans like me and violet when we find ourself at cross roads with these all mighty find ourself alone and powerless . As a human I might now have much power but as the mate of the werewolf king can get me access to information which I need the most . Its been hours and I have read around 10 books making notes of everything which I can use . I will use this disadvantages of being his mate as my shield I will fuel my anger and the king will be dead by the time his kind can get a whiff about it.  I am done taking the high road . I have long accepted that escape is not possible the desire to take revenge is burning deep within me messing with me moral compass of right and wrong . It claws at me as I eat with him during dinner at night but I have to keep the act up . The human nature in itself in very unpredictable and I will use the anger and suffering of countless women before me bound with the same fate as mine as my power . I will no longer to be a puppet of my own fate decided by some mythical goddess of some fanatic creatures. I will be the creator of my own fate and the death of the King . He is no king of mine . Taking few deep breathes I gulped down the water and move to sleep as I noticed Ingrid watching me with the same gaze as Ivar was . They think that I am in a shocked state and is still processing and I will let these dimwits continue thinking like this .

At late night

I have requested Ivar for a separate chamber and after convincing him which took me hours and coming to a negotiation of having the meals together I was able to get this chamber to myself. 
The days went in a blink , reading planning and plotting but the nights are merciless . I keep getting flashbacks I want to make the sight to go away . The war had become a distant memory but after Novak everything changed.  I night I find myself as the same 16 year old teen yearning for her parents to return . The fear the anger the helplessness of the situation doubles down my thoughts take a rabbit hole of darkness threatening to swallow me whole as I hang just by a thread . I do not know whether I will be kept alive after trying to attempt killing the king mate or not if Ivar manages to stay alive then he will heath hell fury on me . I will be mated with him the choice which I don't know that I have or not will taken away . I will be his in flesh which scares me the most . I do not want to birth his children.  I DONT WANT THAT FAITH , knowing Ivar and his sick brother they will stoop lower then that . I will welcome death with open arms before being a dutiful mate . I cannot risk been caught . I have to proceed with caution . This fight is not of violet this is for my mother for her death by the hands of the creature whom she died protecting me from . I will not let her death be in vain . I have seen how Ivar thinks he will make a example out of me silencing any and every voice while his kind will cheer and mine will tremble . I am done trying to live a life as if nothing had changed . I tried that already and look where it landed me in the arms of the killer of my mother my family.  He took away what I loved the most in the world and I will take away from what he loves the most power . Rubbing my tears away I moved towards the window to stare at the moon trying to find some resemblance of serenity in my life while it was changing from bad to worst . There was something I felt when those men yes what was there name The Dmirtis twins as Ingrid called them when they touched me I felt something I can't place a name to it was as if they wanted me to see something as I remember the war scene flashed in the mirror then only . I might be wrong but my gut feeling is strong . The dmitris I wish we meet again . Casting a last glance towards the full moon I slept keeping my window open .

A/N :- The next update is here . I wanted to show you guys a separate update of how Anya is holding up . Do you think she is doing right going to an extreme decision so quick without seeking help . What will happen when Ivar will get to know about this . Thoughts on the twins ? Will they help Anya or they have an ulterior motive . In the next chapter the twins will make an entry again this time there are here to play an game :- game of death . May the fittest supernatural or human survive . Let me know your thoughts in the comment section . Till the next time we meet stay safe stay happy.
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