A Silas Fanfiction

Chapter 15

I woke up gasping for air. if I remember correctly I'm.....

I covered my mouth to hold in the sobs. I didn't want this. I looked up and saw Damon. He only stared at the floor.

"Does anyone else know what you did?" I asked him not looking him in the eye.

"No, after I did it I couldn't stop the guilt. I'm so sorry El I didn't want you to die." he said sadly.

"Well guess what Damon! I am dead! I never wanted this. Yes I was immortal before but I didn't have the thirst for it. it was like a casual drink. Now I need it to survive!" I said sobbing.

"I wanted to die a unnatural natural death." I said my head hitting the back bored. I am thirsty.

"Well I'll get you something to drink." he said and left the room. I sat there. what do I do. Do I drink and live forever. I could never kill someone for my own personal needs. Once he came back I tried to shut the door. But no magic.

"Keep that away from me." I said. Damon looked at me and set it on the table.

"El, I am so so sorry I did this to you. I was hurt and felt horrible, I was selfish because I love you like a sister and I could never lose you. I was so blind and once it happened I just came back from it looking at your dead body..." he said trailing off.

"I don't think I can forgive you for this Damon. You know I didn't want this. I think you should leave and not tell anyone about this." I said looking away. He looked at me one last time and sped away. I got out of bed and looked at the cup of blood and felt my gums ache. I threw it away quickly. Do I want this? Do I want to survive?

I got a call. Silas.

"Hello." I said keeping my voice steady.

"Hey is everything ok? You sound like your getting weaker." he said concerned. Well it's actually the opposite.

"No I'm fine but I'm just taking my time. I need to go Silas I'll call you later." I said and hung up.

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Silas pov

She ended the phone call quickly. I was worried. I don't want to miss time with her. I decided to see what the brothers were up to today. So I drove to their house.

"Open up Salvatore's!" I yelled banging on the door. Damon opened the door slowly and with a bottle of alcohol in his hand.

"Who died?" I asked joking. he looked up and I thought he was gonna cry.

"She didn't tell you?" He asked confused.

"Tell me what?"

"Your gonna kill me." He said shutting the door. I blocked it and opened the door.

"What are you talking about Damon?" I asked.

"El I did something horrible and she's never gonna forgive me." he said. Stefan came in after hearing all the racket.

"What's going on?" He said confused.

"I don't know Damon did something as usual and to El and now he hates himself for it." I said.

"I...I turned her." he said. My eyes bulged out of my school.

"You....what.." i said fuming.

"She's in transition Silas do you not understand that!?!" He yelled and I snapped his neck and left the house. I needed to get to El's.

Stefan came out with me carrying his brother. "We are coming too." he said throwing Damon in the trunk. We got to El's house as fast as we could and knocked on the door.

"Go away." I heard.

"Open the door El." I said. And just like that the door opened. She was here with messed up hair and a multicolored sweater. We all came in and Damon was still being thrown around like a rag doll.

" Damon told us what he did he looked horrible" Stefan said.

"He should be. I didn't want this. I never wanted this I've always been a servant of nature I don't have magic I don't have anything!" She said tears falling down her face. I came over to her wrapping her in a hug.

"I'm so sorry El." I said holding her. Damon started moaning and groaning. Until he sat up.

"El? I feel so horrible about what I did can you please try to forgive me." he begged.

"Damon you can't just do this to someone and expect it to be ok! I'm dead! I am not alive anymore! I will have to kill people to survive and I can't do that the guilt will kill me! I can't forgive you for this." she said.

"But your gonna have to drink something." Stefan said. I left to get a blood bottle from El's cooler.

"Here." I gave it to her. She opened the bottle and I saw veins and fangs come out she brought the bottle to her lips and sipped it. Then she chugged the entire thing.

"Are you ok now?" Stefan asked.

"No I... I actually don't feel so good." she said and then vomiting all of it back up.

"What the hell?" I said.