A Silas Fanfiction

Chapter 12.

El's pov

I didn't want to sleep. I was afraid of the dark and I couldn't get the images out of my head. Drowning.

I didn't sleep most nights. Silas would be sleeping in our bed and I would be watching tv in the living room. I couldn't sleep.

One morning he got up and saw me awake.

"Ok El what's happening to you. I scared for you. You don't sleep at night. You almost flinch when I touch you. It scares me." He says concerned.

"I'm sorry," I whisper. I knew I was distancing myself but what happened to me was pretty traumatizing.

"Talk to me. You won't tell me what they did to you." That's true I refused to talk about what they did to me. He's been bugging me about it all week so I snap.

"I can't talk about it. It scares me to talk about it. You want to know why I can't sleep? Because it's dark everything around me is dark. I can't sleep because of the nightmares. They abused me Silas and I'm scared someone will hurt me again. I love you I still love you but I'm scared." I say. Standing up. He was surprised to get a more than two word statement. I walk back up stairs and put my hair up and walk back down stairs.

"I'm going to the grill, do you want to come I'm craving a burger." I said smiling weakly. I realize that I've been scaring him too and I want to try to get better instead of sulking.

"Are you sure you want to go. Your being pretty adventurous." he said smiling. I laugh a little, he follows me out the door and I hand him my keys.

"You want me to drive?" He asks confused.

"I don't trust myself driving right now." is all I said and he drove to the grill, quite horribly.

"Well that was terrifying." I say.

"Okay yea it was, but that's the first time I've driven in ya know, ever." he said. We got out of the car and into the grill. We decided on a booth instead of the bar. Matt soon came around.

"What can I get for-" he said looking up.

"El how have you been I heard what happened. Are you ok" he says kindly.

"Ya I'm ok. Just been busy." I say looking at the menu.

"Busy watching tv" Silas said smiling. I lawfully glare at him. Matt laughs.

"Ok so what can I get you guys today?"

"Coke and a burger." I say, Silas orders the same and we stay quiet.

"El?" he asks.

"Yea?"

"Why couldn't you use your magic? To get out I mean." he said.

"I couldn't breath. I was drowning And I think someone was preventing it. I think I could have done it If someone hadn't stopped me." I say

"You don't think it could have been..." he said

"No! He...he wouldn't do that." I say looking down at the table. What if it was him though. What if Zaul did this to me?

"Ok. It's ok calm down." He said grabbing my hand. I hadn't realized I'd been shaken the place. What's going on with my magic? I thought.

"It's like I'm losing control of it again." I said.

"Here's your food." Matt came before I could say anything.

"Thanks." Silas said. We started eating. I looked around the place and I studied a poster over in the corner when suddenly it burst into flames.

"Oh my god. Silas we need to leave." I said putting a 20 on the table..

"Why." he asked I pointed over to the poster. His eyes widened and he put out the fire and we left.

"Did you do that?" He asked.

"I don't know I was just reading it and it turned into fire." I said.

"I'm losing control"