BAD KISS

Chapter 4: Full of thoughts

- You can't just...date guys you don't fully met, Bev.

She licked her ice cream as she scrolled videos in YouTube on her phone

- It's not l-like that!

I felt my heart aching as I could bear the truth that I've slept with a stranger.

- Mom is coming home tomorrow,

Terissa turned to me

- what? Are you going to leave me and Maico again for that stranger-guy?

She placed her phone down and glanced at me. I tried defending Lucas with all my courage.

- He's no stranger, Teris. He's-

Terissa just facepalmed

- Look, I don't want to be in a bad mood right now.

Terissa looked at me with pleading eyes

- Just please, Bev.

I couldn't just leave my siblings behind, but to be honest I fall in love that easily.

Even if I meet strangers at first glance, it feels like I've met angels who came down from heaven.

Not like, particularly THOSE angels.

I meant, first glance, you've already tried imaging falling into their deep arms.

Gosh, what am I thinking?

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I took a break from work for a week since I don't feel like coming back there.

I mean that's how it started, me and Lucas taking each other's hands and forgetting about everything around us.

Was it lust or love that I'am feeling? Or was it dark romance like what I've read from the collection back in the City Library.

I just sat there on my bed feeling anxious, then I stood up wandering around my room questioning myself--

"Is he even going to remember the night we had?"

I crossed my arms and I made my way to the kitchen, out of thoughts.

"What if he's a playboy?"

I bit on the fresh apple from the basket of fruits.

My thoughts of him were like flipping calendars with each column of memories.

I stomped like a little kid,

"NO! I'am not going to fall for him."

But I kept on remembering the night we had.

"Like seriously girl, you wouldn't fall for him but you fell on his bed. Well what do you call that, Bev!?"

I talked to myself while eating the apple hard like a hungry zombie.

Then there, I heard a voice from behind.

"Jesus christ, Bev. Don't act like a childish-teenage girl, it's stupid."

"Stupid!?"

I marched up to Terissa who was leaning on the doorframe.

"You're the one who's stupid!"

I cried out like a child

"Look, I just want to protect you from all costs. It's not like I'll just let you chase some prince charming and end up getting---"

I cut her off by yelling

"I DON'T CARE!!"