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12.Mile - my life

I look at my fiance who now sleep deeply.  He must be hurt and tired. I never plan to touch him. But looking at him walking to me drive me crazy. I never thought he will find me here. No, it just excuse. I know I just cant stop myself. I know I want him when I run form nina. I know I want him after I taste his sweetness.  I can give a thousand excuse but end of the day, I just want him for myself.  I plan to refuse his request and confess after i prepare my proposal but I really cant stop myself this time. Only God now how I stop myself while he is living in my room. He practically half naked sleeping on my bed everyday.  He love to sleep topless. So he can't blame me. I am so done with cold shower everyday.  I gently caress his mark body. He cutely react to my touch and snuggle closer. I think I can die for this guy.

I try myself best to redeemed myself.  After the day I lost my control he refuse to talk and look at me. He is too scare to starve himself because of his best friends. I try my best. He finally agree to talk to me when I fall sick. I am too busy and too focus on him. Unconciously I neglect my own health. It just a small issue, I just have a fever because i need to travel back and forth  between two different weather country. But I use this chance as kim suggested.  He make me stay in the hospital.  Bright who are angry and what not run to me when kim inform him I fall sick. He scold me and cry at the same time. He is just the guy who have too much compensation.  He is too forgiveness.  While crying he feed me food. So when grandpa and grandma ask him to take care of me for him, he can't help but to agree. He is working hard , but he ignore his health grandma said worrily. I felt guilty because not only bright but my grandparent also get tricked by us. Thank you baby, I said and lift him on my body. Put me down, you are sick he said worrily.  Dont worry,  even I am sick, I still can hug you, I said .
He now look at me. Are you really sick phi , he ask me. Maybe be if he not too worry and sad he will notice that I am just having fever. The drama from my grandma also make him lost his focus.
I am sick, I quickly said. He look at me and then put his head on my shoulder. He just let me hug him.

I know his fans are getting crazy.  He suddenly dissapear make the people industry worry and confused. He suddenly disappeared. So since I am in big debt, I try to make it proper this time. I contact his best friend . Ask for their understanding and make a proper retirement announcement for him. So when he finally agree to get married, I ask his bestfriend to walk him on isle.  I am trying my best to make him happy.
When he show me how he worry about me make me felt over the moon. I hug him tight. What will happen to me if you don't care about your health. Everyone are waiting for you downfall. What will happen to me if you leave me alone, he ask me. I look at him . I will never leave you, I said firm. So take care of your self he said. I am sorry, I will I said.  Promise , he ask me. I promise you baby, I said. He slowly nod and hug me.
Can I have you baby , I ask . No, he firmly reply. I just chuckle and kiss his head.

Not here phi, he said worrily.  He look at the door. But I want to do it on the sky, I said . He look at me with his beautiful wide eyes.  There are people here he said desprately.  So, I ask him. It not proper and I am shy he said with all the blushing. They wont dare to say anything, I said . No, he said firmly. Then can I kiss you, I ask him again. Only kiss,  he ask me back. Yes, only kiss I reply.  He slowly aproach me and peck my lips.  Here you kiss, he said.  I look at him with are you kidding eyes.  I want real kiss I said. Before he start arguing I kiss him passionately.   He can't refuse me anymore when I start to kiss him. He is too sensitive and he is driving me crazy. I am being good husband today. I make sure I don't mark above his collarbone.  I only can laugh when he look at me angrily before we leave the plane. He refuse to be carry and I patiently wait for him. Phi, he call me when he cannot move .  I quickly lift him and walk to our car. I hate you, he said. 

I think I am at my peak of life. I have everything I want. With bright at my side, I don't dont want anything more.
He is too sweet. I just smile looking at him entertaining my grandparent.  Both of them love him so much. So this year Christmas felt so wonderful.  I never spend Christmas holiday even when I am with nina. But my sweet baby, make my life upside down because I dont have plan to celebrate Christmas.  He cry and tantrum everyday until I agree to have year end leave.  He even ask kim to enjoy his Christmas holiday. He hug kim tight when he know, kim dint have family, he was adopted to accompany me since he was a kid. Honestly I treat him like a brother but that stubborn guy refuse to use our name and act like my assistant. So now kim ackwardly stand beside my husband to decorate the Christmas three.  My helper also busy preparing for the Christmas night. All of us will have dinner together at the back yard. Master bright, a young girl call my husband excitedly. What wrong Liz, my husband ask quickly.  Head chef ask for suggestions for dinner menu, she said excitedly.  Okay, let go he said. Finish it up phi, he said to kim. Kim who are focus on his job just nod.  Help phi kim phi, my husband said and look at me who now looking at him. I quickly nod.
He is so bossy, kim said. He is, I reply and help kim decorate the tree. This is too much. I never see Christmas tree this big beside shopping mall,kim said.  Stop complaining,  he will scold us again later I said and hold the ladder tight. I need to make sure my assistant don't fall because decorating Christmas three.
Now me and kim look at the present my husband prepared. Everyone are so excited because under the giant Christmas there  are a mountain of present for our workers. That why he choose to build the giant Christmas three at our back yard.  Honestly it felt like family gathering. He spent the whole week just to shopping for Christmas present and spend 2 day only to decide the present for each of them . Baby, I quickly hold him when he walk pass me and kim. What, he ask. Dont tired yourself,  I said. Phi , festival holiday mean getting tired and happy he said and push me away and run to help my grandma team. They're making cookies. This house look so livelier , my grandpa suddenly said. A bit too much, I said. Grandpa just laugh.  Bring someone back, he suddenly said to kim who try to run away. He look at me try to ask for help, but I play dumb. So while grandpa give kim a long speech I slowly walk to my husband and hug him. What happen, he ask me quickly.  Nothing, I said . I miss you I said again.

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26.10.24