hello (diaries of my boring life)

-october 20-

OK HELLO CUTIES~
tysm for all the support!! rly appreciate u all

okkkaurrr
IM SORRY I DIDNT LIKE TAKE A PIC OF MY FIT TODAY THIS IS THE ONLY SHIT I GOT

a cute like tight red track jacket? the ones u see on pinterest
with the same white undershirt thing i whore(💅) yesterday
and dark wash flared jeans (ofc)

today was fucking stressful
i was so dramatic ohmg

so my family (both sides) are all rly rly Christian
and i feel pressured yk
cause i sin baddd
and i pray but recently ive felt out of place
so i didnt take communion (grape juice/wine for blood of Jesus and a cracker or bread for the body of Christ)
and my mum asked me why

and we got into like a fight
she said she'll support but she wants me to be a Christian but can't like force it onto me (I'm grateful for that) but she wants to like do this Christ thing with her

... AFTER JS TELLING ME I DONT HAVE TO

*side eye*

but I understand cause if I was rly religious I would prob try to get my children to be the same way
but I'm still rly pressured
and then I cried
and she cried
... awkward and I called her cartman and she called me caseoh 😭
WE HAVE A WEIRD RELATIONSHIP IKIK

anyway so church then me and my mum went to her friends house for brunch
It was good but I didn't know anyone there cause I'm not close with this group

my mum has like 3 main friend groups and I'm close with one but yh

after that I found a therapist
My mum finally let me get one after saying I had no problems for 2 yrs...

she kinda understood me tho

then like an hr ago I got dinner with my dad
we went to this rly nice Italian place super nice vibes
maybe I'll find a pic
and I got fettuccine Alfredo (duhhh)
my dad got lamb lasagna
no hate but I don't rly like lamb

me and my dad aren't close but we talked a lot and it wasn't that awkward

And js a few moments ago I finished a pumpkin cookie that my mums friend Kabby (I like her she likes me) made for my dad as a thank u cause my mum is going on a trip with Kabby

it was super yum and now I'm gonna anything productive

(my mum put on the screentime lock thingy again cause she said it would benefit my mental help)

okk byeee yall eat ok

xxxxxxxx-kait