Will You Tell The Sky About Me?

ch4 I will shatter in million pieces

"Please don't shatter me", you said to me while holding me. "I will break into millions of pieces, if this doesn't work out."
Why did you go and do this to me then.
Why you ask me not to hurt you, yet you end up doing the same thing to me.
Such a hypocrite.
Yet my heart still aches
For you to come back.
I wish I could not feel my heart beating fast at the thought of you.
Yet deep down, I am convinced you will never come back to me,
You never loved me.
I don't know what I was to you.
But I wish you never started this. Yet you say you will do it all over again, I will not. If the outcome is my scarred heart. I want to be kind to me.
I don't want to blame anyone.
I took your stand, I hurt the people I loved just so I could be with you.
And you only discarded me.
It's enough of self pity for now.
I don't believe in myself anymore.
I don't believe in anyone anymore.
And once more, I end up crying for you.
I guess this is a lesson, loving wrong person.
Can a shattered heart break again and again?
I can affirm, it does.
Until when ?
Till we can feel and remember, I guess.