Adulting is not easy...
I don't know how i landed here, I feel so tired and drained and there is this dull throbbing in my heart
I then realised that I was walking through The tunnel which I dreaded, I knew that i would have to cross at one point in my life but never realised that it would be this sooner
No one warned me about what was gonna happen but just the fact that it is gonna be a hella ride
i turned back hoping to see my once colourful world behind but couldn't see anything so i continued forward towards the nano sized light which appeared at an unending distance away now.
I tried turning back around but a force kept me from going back , it's like a barrier
I couldn't go back to My world , the beautiful world where people once used to call me home and where I felt loved belonged and never left out, where laughing out loud was easier and never ever forced, where memories were made even in the darkest of days, where talking was easier,where I was never lonely and where I never felt This empty feeling which I feel everyday now ,...
I don't belong here
I am feeling cold, empty and even void where do I turn to and to whom do I ?
What do I do to make my heart feel warm , it's been a while since it been full of emotions
Is it too much to ask for a warm hug and maybe even a soft tender kiss on my forehead and whisper "it's gonna be alright". Even if it all lasts for a minute i would just die for this to happen.
Where are you and when will you come into my life ?
Praying that you do come sometime soon , cause I can't hold on too long
But I will still reach the light one day , and someday I will be proud of myself for who I am
With love 💖
Rose Zane
