𝚈𝚘𝚞'𝚛𝚎 𝚘𝚗 𝚖𝚢 𝚋𝚕𝚘𝚌𝚔 𝚒𝚗 𝚝𝚑𝚎 𝟿0'𝚜

7: old schedule program

Fuckshit Pov

Friday March 8, 2023

"Okay now lift your right arm for me...good baby you're doing good." the older black nurse came and was helping me out.

Nurse Irma was my physical therapist that was helping me out. By the grace of some twisted fate my brain and body were bruised not damaged. But mentally I was shattered. I don't remember much of how I ended up here and why. I do know something. It was that Ray played over and over in my mind abandoning me. Ray abandoned me. Really abandon me.

I felt a small warm hand touch my face. "Come on sugar...snap out of it." She gently patted my face. I zone out a lot and can't keep focus. The doctors are saying I'm dissociating.

"Sorry." My voice came out raspy and low. She sighed, "I know you want some alone time, so I'll leave you alone for now but when I come back, I'll catch you up on the stories." I chuckled non humorous as she walked out.

She bathes and feeds me every day. She even washes and unmatted my hair. I was told it had caked up blood and damage done to my whole body. I also had short term amnesia for about four days. I couldn't tell you my name or where I even was.

I looked around my very sterile ass room just waiting and wondering when I leave here that I have nothing. Shit I am nothing. I don't know how long I zoned out, but I heard a knock on the door that made me jump. I turned and look and it was Jamal and Ruby.

"Hey" Ruby said softly he was holding a bag of food that was Mcdonald's.

"Hey" I smiled towards both of them.

"How you doing white black man?" Jamal said with a smirk. I drop a smile on my face and chuckled shaking my head.

I remember when I first meet them and things made a slight turmoil cause I said nigga. Which I have every right and could say it because my mom was black. Like black New York, Bronx black and my daddy was black, white and Italian.

"Nothing just thinking. What you get?" I said sitting slightly up. Ruby responded, "Just some McD's. He pulled not one but three 20 mc nugget's out with large as fries.

"How you feeling whitey?" Jamal said. I shook my head and picked up a chicken nugget. "Fine just tied and thinking" I said again since they weren't satisfied with my first answer. I answered with my mouth full.

Then I heard mother hen talk. "Don't chew with your mouth full you'll choke." Ruby said eating his own nuggets.

Me and Jamal looked at each other and said, "Yes mother," together. We all laughed and was back to eating in relatively silence.

"Oh, what were you thinking about earlier?" Ruby said dipping his fries into his barbeque sauce.

I kept n chewing and thinking if I should tell them, I said fuck it in my mind and just told them.

I shrugged nonchalantly, "I was just thing about what's gonna happen to me. When I get discharged."

"The old friends I had abandoned me, my family is physically abusive, and I have nothing, I don't know what I'm do." I lamely throw French fry thinking of life. Times like these I miss getting high.

I heard Jamal and Ruby talking. I looked up when I hear both their chairs scrapping against the hospital floor. I felt the bed dipped on both sides and looked at both of them.

"How about you stay with me?" Ruby said sounding seriously. I looked at him weirdly.

"You'll have a place to stay and you'll be safe" Jamal jumped in. I looked between the two and laughed and shook my head.