Axls Elton John record spun around on your record player as you cooked spaghetti in the kitchen for you and Axl. Axl was up in bed sleeping though he had stayed up last night trying to write a song when you went up to bed he was hunched over the piano scribbling things in a note book. Axl never really had a good sleep schedule so you let him rest. Bennie and the Jets was playing that was one of Axls favorites you smiled thinking about him. The spaghetti was ready and you decided to go up to your room to see if Axl was awake for dinner or if you should let him sleep and warm it up for him when he woke up. You went upstairs and got to your bedroom door you could hear sobbing. It was hard and heavy and you knew it was Axl. Axl had a lot of trauma from his childhood and he had begun therapy which was good but at the same time bad because it really made him face his past and problems and it brought back bad memories that made him spiral sometimes. You knocked on the door "Axl are you ok?" You said really worried about him. You got no response but could still hear him crying you decided to go in. And there he was sitting on the side of the bed his face in his hands sobbing his hair all in his face and he was crying. It was hard to see him like this but being his wife this wasn't the first time you'd seen him like this in fact you were probably the only person he was the most open with about his feelings. You sat down on the bed next to him. He didn't acknowledge you. You put an arm around him and put your head on his shoulder and moved his hair out of his face. "Sweetie what's wrong?" You asked calmly. Axl sobbed harder and gave you no response. You sat there holding him for a little while. "I'm here for you Axl " you said stroking his hair. He moved his face away from his hands his eyes were red and puffy his face was wet from tears and snot was running down his nose and his voice that was usually deep and confident was now shaky and desperate. "Just go away y/n I don't feel like talking" he snapped at you and then going back to crying and hiding his face.
You didn't want to push his limits if he needed time to cry you needed to let him even though all you wanted to do was hold him and tell him he can talk to you, you wanted to take all his pain away but instead you got up. "Ok" you said walking out of the room and shutting the door. You decided to give him some time and go back and try to talk to him later. You ate your dinner by yourself and played music but it felt empty without Axl you had to admit. Once you finished eating you went back upstairs to check on Axl. When you walked into your room Axl was no longer crying but was now laying on his back looking up at the ceiling. "Hey baby" you said sitting down on the bed. Axl didn't respond his face was blank and few tears still streamed down his face. You started gently rubbing his knee he didn't say anything. This went on for a few minutes then you stopped rubbing his leg and sighed. "Don't stop it feels nice" Axl said his voice still a bit shaky from crying. "Ok" you said going back to doing it Axl then sat up and grabbed your hand. "I had a bad dream that's all" he said. "I'm sorry babe it's not real though" you said kissing his cheek. "Yeah it was just one of those were I'm a kid again and you know my dad and then and it's you know" he said his voice breaking a little and tears rolling down his cheek which you wiped away. "I won't go into detail but it just feels so real and scary y/n I just why y/n why" Axl pleaded tearing up again. You hugged him tighter wishing you could take the pain away from him"I know Axl but he's gone now and I won't let anyone hurt you ever again" you said squeezing his hand. "Just why y/n just why maybe if none of that happened I wouldn't be so damn messed up" Axl said looking you in the face finally. "I'm proud of you Axl look at all you've overcame even if you have that baggage your still amazing and your a great husband to me" you said trying to cheer him up. He smiled finally. "The press doesn't think so" Axl said. "Fuck the press they just make shit up to sell stuff" you said. Axl laughed. "I don't care what's happened to you before Axl I know who you are and I love you and I won't let anything bad happen ok I'll always be here for you" you said. A tear rolled down Axls cheek and he smiled you moved his hair and kissed him. "I'd be dead without you know that right babe" Axl said looking down at your intertwined fingers. You laughed "i know that's why I'm glad we found each other " you said smiling. "Me too no one else would deal with my crazy shit" Axl said. "Are you ok now?" you asked. "Yeah for now" Axl said. "Wanna take a shower together?" You asked knowing it would make him feel better. "Of course I do" Axl said scooping you up bridal style and carrying you into the bathroom.
