Eclipse//Supernatural

005. Everybody Loves a Clown

You and the boys were burning John's body giving him the hunters funeral. Y'all stayed in quiet taking in the moment

You couldn't help but try and remember all the good times to help you try and get through this.. it's been year and this is how it starts back..

"Before he.. before he.. did he say anything to you? Either of you? About anything?" Sam asked and you looked over at Dean who was still staring at John's body

"No. Nothing." Dean said and you stayed quiet..

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It was a week later after John's death and the boys were staying with y'all. Dean was out working on the impala all day everyday and Sam would come check on you every now and then.. Dean was being hard headed to talk to but you knew he's come to you when he was ready to talk. He always did. Dean always trusted you with his feelings because you didn't tell anyone and he knew you out of everyone wouldn't think he was weak

You and Sam walked out to check on Dean who was working under the impala "How's the car coming along?" Sam asked

"Slow" Dean said

"Yeah? You need any help?" You asked putting your hands in your front pockets

"What? You under a hood? I'll pass." Dean said

"Hey, I've fixed most of these cars. So, watch it mister" you said and Sam laughed

"Need anything else, then?" Sam asked

"Stop it. Both of you." Dean said rolling out from under the impala

"Stop what?" Sam asked

"Stop asking if I need anything. Stop asking if I'm okay. I'm okay." Dean said before looking at you and you raised your eyebrows

"Really. I promise." Dean said and you just squinted at him

"Yeah. Well, we just wanted to be sure" you said leaning on the table

"It's just.. we've been at Bobby's for over a week now, and you haven't brought up dad once" Sam said

"You know what? You're right. Come here. I'm gonna lay my head gently on your shoulder. Maybe we could cry and hug and maybe even slow dance." Dean said

"Dean, don't be a ass" you said

"Don't patronize me. Dad is dead, the colt is gone, and it seems pretty damn likely that the demon is behind all of this. And your acting like nothing happened" Sam said

"What do you want me to say?" Dean asked

"Say something, All right?! Hell, say anything! Aren't you angry don't you want revenge? But all you do is sit out here all day buried underneath this damn car!" Sam yelled

"Revenge, huh? Sounds good. Got any leads on where the demon is? Making heads or tails of any of dad's research? 'Cause I sure ain't. You know, when we do finally find it- oh, no, wait, like you said, the colt is gone. But I'm sure you figured out another way to kill it. We've got nothing, Sam- nothing, okay? So you know what, the only thing I can do is I can work on the car" Dean said getting down to work on the impala again

"Well, we got something, all right? that's what we came out here to tell you." You said

"It's one of dads old phones. It took me a while, but I cracked his voice mail code. Listen to this." Sam said handing Dean the phone

Dean handed Sam back the phone "that message is four months old." Sam said

"Dad saved that chicks message for four months?" Dean asked