Want you to want me || MerNick One Shot

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"I want my husband to want me and need me like he needs you"

"I want him to see me like sees you, and look at me like he look at you"

"I don't wanna compete with you... because when it comes to Nick,and Meredith... nobody can"

"The only way for him to want me is when you stay away from him"

"Just give me my husband back,Meredith... please"


That conversation with Tanya, Nick's wife for 7 months, was two weeks ago. That very conversation Meredith had with her, was the reason why she's been avoiding her best friends of 25 years for about two weeks now. Everybody in the hospital knew about the long history of Meredith and Nick, some even thought they're together, but that rumor stopped 7 months ago when Nick married. However, their relationship as friends remain the same. They still do everything together and tell each other everything, until 2 weeks ago. When Meredith started avoiding Nick, leaving the hospital staff confused.

"What do you expect? we work together" Nick reasoned.

"It's not just about that Nick, she's all over you, she's wherever you are, wherever we are, actually" Tanya, spatted back.

As of the moment, not to make it obvious, Meredith kept herself busy with surgeries and research, working overtime every night, so that incase Nick had finally said something about not seeing each other that much anymore, she'll have have answer.

"Cancel the rest of my day, I have an appointment to go to" Meredith told the nurse. She still in scrubs as he had just gotten out of the surgery.

"Cancel your day? Already? It's only 8 am" she heard Nick approaching, and stopped next to her.

"Uh,yeah. I have somewhere to be" she breathed out, not looking at him.

"Do you want me to come with you? I'm free until my 3 pm surgery" Nick suggested. 

"No,thank you. I can manage" she started walking away, however Nick wouldn't budge and follow her.

"Come on, we barely see each other these days." he stopped in front of her "We could go grab lunch on the way"

"I don't need you're help,Nick!" she snapped at him. She had to, as a respect of the will of Tanya. For the sake of her best friend's marriage "You're always around, you're soffucating me!" she added, walking passed him, then to the attending's lounge.



A month later

Meredith had just came back from her conference in Boston but still not back to work. She still at home, updating her research. Another excuse because she wasn't ready to face Nick, the only person she needs at the moment, she's in a lot of pain.

It was night, raining cats and dogs, she was in the living room in her sweats and hoodie, she was sat on the couch comfortably and waiting for pizza that's supposed to arrived 10 minutes ago.

*Ring* she heard the doorbell. She immediately stood up to open the door.

"You're not pizza" she said seeing Nick drench on her porch "What are you doing here?" she asked coldly, seeing his red and puffy eyes.

"Can I come in?" he softly said,his voice sounded sad and strained.

Meredith let him in and followed him in the living room. "I'm gonna get you a towel"


When she came back, she found him exactly where she left him. Standing on her foyer, water still dripping on the floor. "Here," she handed him fresh towels and clothes "these are the clothes you left last time" then she went back to the couch. Not leaving any instructions as Nick already know her house very well, he practically lived there their whole residency.

They sat in total silence, just the thunder, and Meredith's keyboard are ones audible in the room.

"Alex told me" he spoke after moments, and Meredith knew exactly what he's talking about "I would have been there. I should have been there" he added, his eyes filling up with tears

"Even if you were there, you wouldn't be much of a help" she answered coldly

"I could have held your hand" he said, looking at her, as small tear left his eyes. "I should have been there,Meredith. Why do you keep pushing me away?" he asked, making her look up at him.

"You're not the one I needed" she replied coldly.

"Why didn't you tell me?" he asked once again.

"There's just things you don't need and don't have to know about me" she stood up and went to the kitchen grabbing a glass of water

"What's the matter with you? Why are you like this?" he followed her in the kitchen, "Why are you torturing yourself like this? You avoided me for 2 weeks, you left for a month without telling me, didn't even contact me. You what hurts the most? You had a surgery and you didn't even tell me? What if you had died, how do you think I'd fell when I didn't know you were sick. Why the hell would you keep that away from me!" saying that Nick is hurt is an understatement. He was devastated. "You can't even look me in the eye"

"None of that matters now, does it?" she sarcastically said. "I'm alive, isn't that what matters?" she went back to the living room, and Nick was quick to follow her.

"What did I do to make you hate me this much?" he asked, making her froze on the spot and tears immediately, build up in her eyes "D-did i do something wrong?" he stammer, confusedly
"What is it,Meredith? Please, put me out of my misery" he practically begged.

"I want Nick" she cried in pain, laying on the hospital bed,. holding Alex' hand.

"Please... just... just tell me so I can stop worrying. And I promised I-" I'll stay away from you from now on

"Do you think I like lying to you?" she softly spoke, "Being away from you?" she faced him. "I had to do it for you"

"Do you think I need your protection?" he asked, somewhat offended

"I had to do it for your marriage and myself" she admitted.

"What's my marriage got to do with this" Meredith looked at him straight in the eye, tears were continiously streaming down her eyes "D-did Tanya tell you to stay away from me?"

"It's my choice,Nick. Tanya didn't asked me anything" she lied.

"Because she still thinks you have feelings for me?" he scoffed, and Meredith however, didn't react and just looked away, wiping her tears. "Do you... have-" feelings for me?

"If I say yes, would you leave her?" she answered.

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