For as long as I remember, I've loved JJ Maybank. I loved him when he would tease me on the playground (I read somewhere that boy tease the girls they like).
I loved him when I had gone to school in third grade with green hair (JJ and my brother had insisted on dying it) and Kelly Arden said that it was weird and ugly, then, the next day, JJ was suspended for trying to cut Kelly's hair off. He ended up chopping half of is off with safety scissors. It was uneven for weeks.
I loved JJ when I was twelve and all the girls in my class had been kissed except for me. I don't even know why I told JJ about it. But then, next thing I knew, JJ was putting his lips to mine. That had been the most amazing moment of my life.
I loved JJ when I was thirteen and some Kook had broken my heart. He said that I was stupid and weird and that he would never date a Pogue. I had cried to JJ about it and the next thing I knew, he was returning home from the guy's house with a black eye.
"Don't listen to him, Janie," he said. Since he had been my best friend for a hell of a long time, he had adopted John B's nickname for me. "He's just jealous. He doesn't have it as good as us Pogues."
I had scoffed. "You mean he'd rather have a life out on the Cut than in his cozy little mansion?"
JJ nodded, taking a sip from a beer can (he had been an avid drinker, even then). "That's exactly what I'm saying, Janie. He doesn't live life on the edge, have adventures, fish for his own meal."
I grinned. "True."
I fell in love with JJ's kindness and support and goofiness and street smarts and just everything about him. But he is still my best friend and somehow...that makes it hard to love him. I mean, what if he doesn't like me back?
Shit. Then I'm screwed.
Well, I'll stop ranting now and give some time for my brother and his little monologue! I'll be back though—you can't get rid of me that easily.
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I love you, I'm sorry || Outer Banks
Fanfiction"You were the best but you were the worst. As sick as it sounds, I loved you first." ☼⚓︎☺︎ Hey, there! I'm Melanie Jane Routledge, but you guys can call me...
