yeah you're my dad but you left and didn't even look back
, you didn't even attempt to see me, you chose a path that brought you to drugs that brought you to a 16 year old girl, 6 years older than me, you start a whole new family when you had a perfectly good one waiting on you to come back one day. You broke me to the point that idk if I should love you or not because you're my father, but you weren't a father to me. Now that I look back at all the times we had together, you weren't a horrible father. Bringing me and my siblings with you to do drug deals, snoring stuff in front of me, teaching me as a 6 year old to shoot a gun, what happened to teaching me how to ride a bike, or how to tie my shoe? you are not a good father, person, or human being. You've left every single child you have, and I am one of them, you missed out on a lot in my life all because you didn't have the decency to even check in on me. I cannot believe I still consider you as a dad, but yet you are, I don't count you as a dad anymore, my stepdad is the only dad I've even known. He taught me more in the 6 years he's known me than in the 9 years you know me. Dad, I miss you. Vernon, you're a horrible being, starting a new family with a women 6 years older than me is not ok. You now have two kids, when you already had two kids when you left, why leave to go have more kids when you already have some that you could be caring for right now? I haven't seen you since the trailer, you pushed my mom out of a trailer 3 feet off the ground right in front of me and my autistic brother. Him and I were crying as you continue to punch my mom. You turn around and slap my brother in the face and then grab me and also throw me out of the trailer, I broke my arm because of this, you throw my brother out on top of me and he landed on my stomach, making me throw up. My mom grabs me and my brother and takes us to the car and drives away as she calls the cops, last time I heard, nothing happened to you, you deserve hell. You deserve nothing. As a child I was scared of you, we saw you at a gas station one day and I start screaming and crying, I was terrified that you would do something again, this was when my mom and stepdad first started dating, I was scared you would follow me and my mother home. you exposed me to a bunch a stuff a child shouldn't even know about. I don't know how to feel about you now that I am 14, maybe you've changed, or maybe you're the same man you always were, a drunk, druggie, abuser, a pussy and a sorry excuse for a man. Dad, or I should say, Vernon, you ruined me. And I will never forgive you.
