Today
for others today looks normal.I stand up. I take my meds. I take the dog for a walk.I eat something. I rest.I play with the dog. And I have free time. I talk with friends. I take my meds.i go to sleep.
But my real day is far more complicated and exhausting
I stand up, feeling the weight of another day ahead. I take my meds, a reminder of struggles unspoken. I walk the dog, our footsteps echoing against the emptiness. I eat something, but the taste is muted, just sustenance to fill the void. I rest, but the quiet is deafening. I play with the dog, his joy a fleeting distraction from my own sadness. I have free time, but I feel trapped in my thoughts. I talk with friends, their voices a distant comfort, overshadowed by my silent battles. I take my meds again, hoping for relief that never fully comes. And I go to sleep, wishing for dreams that might bring solace.
So now that you know a bit more I would love to say one thing
I'm glad to say it our loud
To not longer only say it in my head and carry it in my heart
Aaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhh
Just so you know I just screamed
Some time I wish I could just scream out loud just let everything out
But I can't ...
You might question why I tell you this
Maybe someone out there needs to read this and doesn't feels so alone anymore.
So right now we have evening and I'm calling with my girlfriend it makes me feel a bit better even though it's a short moment but better than nothing I guess.
Sometimes I think
Sometimes the weight in your heart feels heavier than the world on your shoulders.
It's as if the silence in my chest is louder than my heartbeat, echoing the pain I try to hide
