I AM DONE WITH SORRIES.
i am done with SORRIES
that are not meant to be said -
i am done with SORRIES
for wearing a skirt that makes you
uncomfortable I am done with SORRIES
for 'being in your way'
I am done with SORRIES
for not being who you would like me to be
twenty-four-seven with a SMILE on my face like I RELISH it
I am done with SORRIES
for just being.
what I am trying to say is:
I will not apologise for putting you on edge
I will not utter a single word because your RELIGION your OPINION your UPBRINGING condemns me
I will not let you slip your hand down my throat and drag a SORRY back up -
because I am more than done with SORRIES
I am also done with you.
and so forgive me when I tell you I like girls and don't apologise after -
understand I'm battling every reflex in my body not to.
understand a thousand nerves are meeting at my mouth and they're confused when it forms not a 'sorry' but a 'deal with it.'
understand that this is not RUDE but necessary.
I owe you no SORRIES
and a lot of 'fuck you's
so bear with me
while I try to level the score
(you're still winning
honey,
don't panic yet).
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a note: this is bitter and angsty and i'm not that great at being either outside of poetry but this channels a lot of stuff I've been lowkey feeling under my extreme JOY.
more poetry ft. semi-gay undertones coming from ur fave friendly lesbian (me) who is just coming to terms with being the latter (and coming to terms with coming OUT and not saying sorry about it)
