Khaotung, a 26-year-old adult, wishes to undo the past to find a way to save his high school crush, First. Unable to move on from his tragic past, Khaotung faces depression, wanting to end his own life.
He didn't expect to wake up from jumping off...
Khaotung hisses the pain in his hand as he stares at First, who bumps into the drumset behind him. Shocked as he had just been punched in the face, he held himself up as he touched the spot where he got punched. The corner of his mouth tingles as the side of his jaw throbs.
"I told you! it's over!" He cried out. "stop playing with my emotions, it's not fair!" he started to sob, trembling as his body was pumped with adrenaline. His breathing got heavy as he felt his chest ache. The pain he had pushed away, locked into his heart, surfaced back up, and it was all because of First.
"Tung, I-"
"Don't call me that!"
"Khaotung, please, let me explain" he slowly approached him, not daring to raise his voice to the trembling boy in front of him. "I'm sorry"
"Why did you have to do this to me?" he sobbed, seeing First approach, not daring to move. First, slowly pulled him into a hug, as Khaotung grabbed him by the chest, falling into his arms as he cried into the nape of his neck. "why?"
Both crashed to the ground, sitting on their knees. First didn't speak as he stroked his back in a circular motion. He was feeling sorry that he abounded, the boy. Patting the back of his head, he could hold the tears as they rolled down. He messed up, and he knows that. Hurting the one person he didn't mean to hurt.
"Why did you save me?" he cried, trembling in his arms.
"Because I love you" he pushed Khaotung out of his embrace to face him, cupping the boy's face. "I love you, Tung", he showed a sad smile. "I'm sorry that it took so long to realise I've always loved you" he wipes the tears from his cheeks with his thumbs.
Khaotung stared into the sparkling eyes he missed so much, wondering if his ears played tricks on him as First spoke those words. He never said he loved someone besides his family. This came as a surprise as it came out of the blue.
"The first time I laid eyes on you, deep down, I always loved you. I was just stupid not to realise my own feelings for you, too scared that I couldn't understand them. I didn't want to date you if I wasn't sure how I actually felt towards you. You deserve better than that. I didn't want to mislead you or take advantage of you. I was stupid, I know. But I couldn't let you die like that. You suffered so much because of me, and I'm sorry. I wish we could just be honest about our feelings from the beginning and skip all the shit that happened to us. I wish you could give me a second chance, even if I don't deserve it. All those years without you were hell! Hearing you were doing fine made me happy you were able to move on, but I was selfish, I can't live without you, I-"
