my addiction * gongfourz

005

"finding out."

taesan decided to visit the cafe yet another day, except this time he didn't mention to leehan he was going. he wanted it to be a suprise sort of thing, he wasn't sure if leehan would enjoy it, but he was already on his way.

taesan noticed an older man at the cash register rather than leehan, his eyes wandered around the place in hopes of finding him.

"can i help you?" the older man asked.

"oh um.." taesan hesitated, "i came for leehan."

"ohh, you must be taesan right?" the man smiled.

"uh yes." taesan nodded.

"oh well, leehan will be back!" the man started, "he went out to the store for me."

taesan sits for a few minutes until the door rings, he turns to see leehan. a bag in one hand, and an open pack of cigarettes in the other. the two make eye contact, leehan quickly hides the box of cigarettes, then walks up taesan.

"hi." leehan smiled at taesan, but taesan's mind was still fixated on the cigarettes.

"hi.." taesan responds slowly, leehan could notice this. anyone could.

"i didn't know you were coming today." leehan says, putting on hid apron.

"surprise i guess." taesan says quietly, his mind couldn't get off of the pack cigarettes.

"whats wrong..?" leehan asked, noticing how the boy was different than usual.

"its nothing." taesan whispers.

"taesan."

"hm?" taesan looked up, his eyes meeting leehan's. he had never seen leehan look at him in such a way. he look stern, but vulnerable at the same time. it was such a.. beautiful sight.

"i can tell something is off." he states, his eyes still locked with taesan's. leehan would be lying if his insides weren't exploding, he had never kept eye contact with taesan for this long. it was breath taking.

"oh leehan!" taesan pulled his eyes away to see the man return.

"hi uncle." leehan greets him.

"did you get the stuff i asked for?"

"yes." leehan hands him the bag, but certainly enough, he never handed his uncle the cigarettes like taesan had thought. were they leehan's? taesan thought to himself. there was always a chance.

"why don't you guys go hang out at a park? ill give you the day off." his uncle smiled.

"thank you uncle." leehan thanks, taking his apron off.

the two boys walk on the sidewalk in silence. leehan could tell there was a question bubbling in taesan's mind. the atmosphere told him this.

"do you wanna ask me something?" leehan asks.

"uh yeah.." taesan hesitates.

"what is it?"

"do you.." taesan hesitates again, "do you smoke..?"

"uh." leehan knew it. of course taesan had seen the box of cigarettes, he knew he was too lucky for him not to. "yeah."

"is it an addiction?" taesan asks.

"uh yeah." leehan sighs, "i've been addicted to nicotine since i was fifteen."

"have you ever tried to stop? it's not good for you."

"i want to stop, i haven't found the thing to push me yet." leehan says, his eyes meeting taesan's.

"you will someday, try to stop, for me?" taesan smiles at leehan. leehan watched as taesan took a sip out of a flask he had in his pocket.

"mhm sure." leehan smiled back. "is that water?" leehan asked taesan.

"uh no." taesan replies.

"what is it?"

"just you know.. juice." taesan answers.

"can i have a sip?" leehan asked, watching as taesan took a nervous gulp.

"i don't like people drinking my stuff, sorry." leehan nods to the response, but it definitely wasn't juice. a strong smell came off of it, the smell of.. alcohol.

"i won't get my saliva on it.." leehan looks at taesan with soft eyes.

"fine.. it's not.. juice." taesan admits.

"and.. what exactly is it?" leehan asked, but before taesan could answer he snatched the flask sniffing it. "drinking in daylight?" leehan raises an eyebrow.

"yeah.."

"are you addicted to alcohol taesan?"

"yeah.." he responds shallowly.

"you're quite hypocritical.." leehan says, walking closer to taesan. taesan gulped as leehan got closer.

"would you..." leehan smirked a little, "would you care less if you become my addiction?" leehan asks, trailing his finger on taesan's chest. the boys were in an alley way, taesan was against the wall. the two boys stare intensely at each other, hunger taking over each other. their lips meet, the kiss felt intense. it was as if they were each others secret addictions.