rants.

why is she gaslighting me again

Why is she begging for my forgiveness and at the same time gaslighting me again that she didn't say those shit about me and said that I forgave her

Ain't that the bitch who ruined my friend and I, manipulated my classmates into thinking I was a bad person behind my back (I kind of had a feeling that she did it already before I found out myself.) and now I'm being portrayed as a "fake" friend??

This bitch hungry for attention AF

How did I even fall for her lies that time? Was I so naive?

How, just how?

She forced me to draw NSFW drawings even if I tried to get away, she's always catching up. I didn't want to make those. She even showed it to my classmate and now she's denying that she'd the one who asked me to make those.

I remember last year when I tried to commit by trying to jump off our school building (which had 6 floors) but I hesitated.

(I'm not that suicidal anymore y'all, I'm aware of how shitty and fucked up the world is but I don't think like that anymore.)

I had went back to my class with tears and told my trusted advicer about it. Got suspended to take a rest for a week.

What was the reason I tried to commit that time?

-bullying
-harassment
-being pressured by others
-backstabbed me quite a lot

I was a quite fragile, huh? My bad. Little Bella doesn't have a lot of confidence.

Little? "Last year" Bella, dumbass.

Fine, fine. "Last year Bella".

Okay, after my suspension and went back to class, I knew that my "incident" grew popular quickly in class,

My advicer announced what happened while I was gone, 2 days after my incident, what happened now?

Well, she also tried to do the same thing as I did, with the same reason as I did.

While talking about her incident, I saw her crying, some of my classmates quickly confronted her while she was sobbing, I wish I bought earplugs that time.

I noticed that her hand was in a cupped position. I instantly knew something was in her hand, and what do I see?

Dundundundun!

A fucking tear stick.

To be honest, I wasn't even surprised, I don't know what to expect when it comes to her. She used the tear stick when she bent down after her pen fell to to the floor,

It was so awkward because I was 2 seats away from her, silently begging the announcement to be finished so she could stop crying.

I don't understand why she did all those things when she's loved by her family.

I understand that she had a background too, but why would she do that?

Because she was a loner in class like I was? Because no one comes up to her to greet her?

Because she doesn't get the warm greets of friends like the other receive?

Because she didn't get the attention she wanted from society?

I always knew she wanted to be famous, to be seen in other classes, to be heard.

But is being a pathological liar the way to be known?

Did she have to ruin everyone's perspective of me? Make fun of my friends insecurities and call it out to the entire class?

Does she not have any ideas on how to be known to others without including those? Make good friends, perhaps?

Did she have to include the two girls who just wanted to learn and live peacefully?

She doesn't deserve my forgiveness.

Stop begging me.

You're still the pathological liar that wanted attention.