Joe's POV
I zip my suitcase up and stand is against the wall. It's been two weeks since I saw Caspar. There is an ache in my stomach, part hunger, part guilt. I shouldn't have left Caspar on his own.
Will helps me with my bags and drives me back to the apartment. When we pull up, I hesitate to open the door. "Go on" Will says "you can't go on like this"
I get out the car and wave to will "and Joe? Try to eat something yeah?"
I nod but I know that is something I can't promise. I slowly drag my bags up the stairs and unlock our apartment door. I see a tall man with blond hair in sweatpants and a baggy jumper. He has headphones in and he is facing away from me, cleaning the kitchen work top.
I abandon my bags and run to Caspar, wrapping my arms around his waist and press my cheek against his back. Caspar turns around and looks confused at first, but then his expression softens
"Joe" he pulls me close and hugs me tight
"I'm sorry for leaving" I whisper.
"It's okay" he whispers back.
I nuzzle into is chest and hug him tight in fear that if I let go, he will disappear from my life.
I look up at him and he looks down at me. I get lost in his bright blue eyes. I imagine the sea when I look at them. Sparkling and bright, full of life and hope.
"Joe" Caspar whispers "are we going to try this?"
"Try what" I ask. Caspar shakes his head and leads me over to the couch. He sits down and pulls me with him. I takes my hands and takes a deep breath.
"I've been doing a lot of thinking whilst you were away and, I think we should give us a shot. If it doesn't work out, then fine. But we have something special, Joe. Something that isn't found easily and...... I want to be with you, I really really do. You mean more to me than anything in this world and I don't think our love should go to waste" he says.
"Caspar" I say, a tear escapes and runs down my cheek. "I love you"
Caspar moves towards me slowly and presses his lips to mine. It's not hungry or aggressive, it is gentle and passionate. It's everything I expected, and more. Our lips fit together like puzzle pieces, it's perfect.
I pull away breathless. Caspar laughs and I do too. "Wow" I say.
"Want an early night" Caspar whispers in my ear. I bite my lip and nod.
We go downstairs and strip to our boxers. Caspar's eyes widen when he sees me. I cover up. It's obvious he's seen. He thinks I'm fat. Well I can't have that. Caspar is the only boy I've ever loved and I want to be perfect for him. I climb into bed and so does Caspar. He wraps his arms around my waist and kisses the back of my neck.
"Goodnight my love" he whispers.
