Caspar's POV
"ladies and gentlemen, we will shortly be making our decent into london, heathrow"
i sigh as bright light floods my vision and a soft ping sound rings through the length of the vehicle. i follow the rest of the passangers and fasten my seatbelt before sliding up the window break and to stare at the city below.
somewhere down there, my boy is waiting for me. i think about holding him, breathing in his scent, kissing his soft, soft lips.
the plane tilts as we finally begin to decend.
i feel the relief of the cool london air almost instantly as i pile off the plane with twenty or thirty other people. i breath in the air and, whilst i love being in south africa, i finally feel home.
i hate airports. the tedious passport checks, the whole formality of it, the fact that if you do something a tiny bit stupid you're practically screwed.
i feel a rush of relief as i finally flop onto the soft upholstered seats of my uber car and lean my head against the head rest, letting a long breath through my nose.
soon i would be back in joe's arms. i couldn't think of anything i wanted more.
the musky smell of the apartment hallway filled my nose and i took a second to breath in the familiar scent before inserting my key into the door and pushing it open.
i entered and all was quiet, the only thing i could hear was the soft dripping of the tap as droplets fell from the metal rim and landed on the white porcelain sink.
joe wasn't upstairs, so i slowly crept downstairs and opened the door to his room.
he was there. his eyes shut, his body wrapped in my grey hoodie and black sweatpants.
i leant against the doorframe and watched him until his eyes fluttered open. he seems surprised at first, but soon the realisation hits him and he runs at me, wrapping his arms around my neck.
"caspar..." he whispered, as i rested my nose in the crook of his neck. the feeling of joe's breath against my neck bought all the comfort i needed.
but then, when i wrapped my arms tighter around him i noticed how little of him there was. he was thin, too thin. i could feel his ribs pressed against me, how slight he was beneath the hoodie.
"i missed you" he said, pulling back. i studied his face, his beautiful, beautiful face.
"i missed you too" i said, placing a tiny kiss on his nose,
"have you eaten?" i ask, aware of the sudden emptiness in my stomach. i mostly slept on the plane and didn't feel like eating. now though, i was starving.
"yeah, i went out for brekfast so i'm good" he says
"joe... it's ten thirty now, surely you must be hungry by now" i say, toeing off my socks beside the bed and changing into a pair of sweats,
joe shrugs, "i'm good... i think there's some left over pizza in the fridge"
the two of us head upstairs, joe retires to the couch as i breath in my pizza as if it were oxygen.
i look over and see joe watching me,
"sorry" i laugh, wiping the grease from my chin.
"so" i say, sitting beside joe on the couch and pulling his legs onto my lap, "how was zoe's?"
"great! we just hung out at her house, got some filming done" joe said,
"sure you don't want this?" i ask, gesturing to the last pizza slice,
"nah" joe said, "i'm going to head to bed"
"oh... okay" i said, placing the empty pizza box on the glass coffee table.
joe heads downstairs, and i take my chance to call someone who i know will be just as concerned as myself.
zoe picks up after three rings,
"hey caspar" she says, "how was south africa?"
"it was great! that's not exactly why i'm calling though" i say, "when joe was staying with you... did he seem weird at all?"
"he's always weird" zoe said,
"no, i mean, did he seem different? like, quieter?"
"a little? i'm not sure, caspar, has something happened?"
"no! no, don't worry" i say, picking the box up and shoving it in the trash, "i'll speak soon"
i hang up and head down stairs where joe is now asleep, the bed covers pulled up over his body.
i climb in beside him, wrapping my arm around his waist and pressing a kiss to the back of his neck,
"i love you" i whispered, before allowing the slow, silent tendrils of sleep creep up on me.
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this is extremely short i'm so sorry, but i've had a lot going on recently aha!
i just wanted to say that this fic will contain topics of eating disorders, which is something that has affected someone extremely close to me. i know it's difficult for some people to read but i am trying to handle it as sensitively as possible, obviously if if makes you extremely uncomfortable, don't read:)
hope you enjoy!!
