God, Guilt, and Guache: A painter's Pilgrame

Bloody shower (Tw)

I swallowed as I slowly build up the courage to respond back

"..i.. I'm feeling alright..." I slowly murmured, I just hoped this call would end soon

"Ah, that's great, how's work? Did you finally leave it, and decided to come back to us?"
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"Did you finally leave it and decided to come back to us?"

These words hit me like a truck.

No, I didn't quit my job, even if i did

I didn't intend on going back to my parents

Nor anywhere near my relatives

I've already gone through that hell for 10+ years

I didn't want to go through it again...
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"No father... I didn't quit" I just answered in a murmur

"Why not? Im pretty sure this path isn't the right one for you!"

I didn't respond, how should HE know what's the right path for me

"Son? You gotta choose the right path! The right path is with us, with go—"

I hung up.

I didn't want to hear it..

I started to question myself, on why, I even thought about calling back

I needed to distract myself..

I needed something

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Shortly after , I stood in the shower just staring at the floor

My gaze slowly wandered over to the razor that laid on a shelf in my shower

It looked so tempting..

I just stared at it for a few good minutes

Before I shakily reached out for it
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What happened after it can I not really tell, all I know, is that I opened my eyes, feeling very dizzy and sweaty (dispite being in a shower) laying in the shower with a bloody arm

I passed out apparently.

My shower was a little bloody now, but it quickly cleaned itself since the water of the shower head was still dripping down

I couldn't get up

I didn't want to get up

I couldn't feel anything

Not even how my heart was bumping against my ribs

I just closed my eyes

And continued to lay on the ground of my shower while the water dripped down onto my body

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(358 words)

(Yay a new Part done, next part on the 8th November!)