letters to my future husband

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2/9/24

To my future husband,

I hold you so dearly in my heart without ever holding your cushiony hands, I feel the goosebumps on my skin as I envision your soft lips pressing kisses on my body, I go to sleep pressing my face against my cold pillow in this November night falling asleep as I try to craft the image of your face like an incomplete puzzle I cannot ever solve without finally meeting you. I wonder when we finally have our own home will I get some sort of déjà vu as if I lived this experiences before? I already felt your love deep in my heart from the bottom ever since I was my father's little princess dreaming to get married one day. When I finally get to meet you I will probably cry all day, tears of happiness falling down my cheeks- please let me make your buttoned down shirt damp from my salty sodium tears it is high time you hold me as I weep as I spent thousands of nights crying for you, because oh I miss you so much.

I wish I get you explain how much I wish you were here to comfort me right now, you know? My crush who I loved one sided way rejected me and I love him so much for now but I know this is probably a phase of my life, it will pass but what won't ever pass is my love for you. In fact the only reason I love my crush is because I think or thought that he was you meaning he could be my future husband. But alas, I was so foolish I did not recognize and mistook from this crowd now I feel almost guilty for letting some man who is not you into my heart. Maybe if you would had given me hints of what you are like I would not have made such silly mistake. You can punish me all you want and please give some naughty nice punishments instead of making me wait for you for ages. You could show your anger to me in any way you want but I believe you should meet me first as I am dying to see your angel eyes. I know the look in them is full of love just for me, maybe not right now as you might me in a relationship with some girl but you when the time comes.

When it's going to be just the two of us and no one else in our candle light date, looking into each other and breaking into a shy smile. You know babe, I am very confident person as for now I will probably always be. I am very passionate about public speaking like a lot- if I could stay in a stage and give speeches in front of millions of people all time I would be very happy. However, I don't think I have the courage to look into your eyes. It makes my heart really giddy and gets me very hot and bothered when I think of you. It is like all the huge pool of confidence I have in me disappears when I think of you. I cannot even fathom being pinned under the bed by you in our wedding night filled with rose petals, well unless you don't like roses.

Speaking of roses, I am like one single rose, all alone and gloomy without you. When you finally come into my life we will be two roses and have a bouquet of children!

As for now, I love I cannot wait to meet you, all yours.

Your future wife.