Why Me?

EXPOSED

David^^^

-David's POV-                             *next day, Tuesday*

I couldn't forget about yesterday. All my life, ever since I met Zayden Hendrickson, I always wondered how his lips would feel and taste. But then he and Jackson started going out...and I lost my chance. And now that I finally got a taste of him - a mix of strawberry and cinnamon - I feel bad.

He's with Jackson, for crying out loud! When he pushed me away, I was devastated. But why did I even kiss Zay in the first place? It was almost as if I was possessed. And when he stopped me... I was devastated because he stopped me. But I was also disappointed with myself. What kind of a friend kisses his friend's boyfriend? A bad one.

I don't understand any of this... He's dating Jackson! I shouldn't want him so badly. I shouldn't even be remotely interested in Zayden! Yet, that kiss still has me captivated. It felt right - perfect, even. I know it's wrong though... He's my best friend and my other friend's boyfriend. I just want him so badly - I shouldn't! And don't even get me started on his outfits! Those short skirts - hmm! No! Stop that! That is not the way I should be thinking about my taken best friend. 

After battling with my thoughts, I decided to just get out of bed and get ready for school. We ought to tell Jackson about the kiss, shouldn't we? I dressed in a Nirvana shirt and baggy jeans with my Jordan Air Forces. I ate a quick breakfast of cereal. then left. I arrived at school at 7:48 a.m., thirty minutes before classes start. So, I just sat in my Tesla, scrolling through TikTok. I noticed Caleb arrive; Andy arrived a few minutes after him. Then, Jackson. Amanda arrived and came over to me to say hi and kiss me, of course. Bleh!

As I was scrolling through my Instagram feed, something caught my eye. It was - HUH?!

How did she get that?! When had she-? How come we hadn't noticed her presence? Taylor Davy posted a video of Zayden and I kissing yesterday. Holy shit! We're in trouble. Has Jackson seen it ye? Fuck! Ugh! This is all my fault! If he sees this, we're dead. 

I noticed Zayden entering the building. Wait...They both arrive at school together, always. Please don't tell me he already saw it! 

I hurriedly got out of the vehicle and cautiously approached Zayden at his locker. 

"H-Hey, bro."

He faced me and it was evident that he had been crying. 

"He bro- He broke u-up with m-me...." He told me, lip quivering.

"Zay...I'm so sorry." I pulled him into a hug. "If I hadn't-" He pushed me away and I stumbled backwards. 

"S-stay away from me, D-David." And with that, he left. 

Crap. If I hadn't kissed him, this never would've happened. Why was I so stupid?

I just stood there, stunned, eyes trained on his retreating figure. Did I really just cause my best friends' breakup?... I felt the familiar sting of tears in my eyes. How could I do something like that?... Is this why they desert me? 

I began to stumble to my locker only to be pushed forward onto the ground.

"How dare you?!" A voice yelled. One all too familiar...

I stood up and wiped my hands on my jeans. 

"Jackson," I acknowledged, nervously. "Look, I-I can-"

Just shut up! I thought you were my friend!"

"I-I am-"

"No, you're not. A true friend doesn't kiss your boyfriend."

I stayed quiet. He was right. I know that. I really fucked up...