Mouthwashing: The Good Ending

Chapter 5: Parental Love

Swansea was shocked at first when I admitted that I don't have any memory regarding my past or my relationship with them. I thought his not gonna believe but then, he regarded me with his trustworthy eyes again.

We snuck inside the door that Swansea had been guarding. He didn't give any indication of that angry bull Swansea gave to Jimmy. What did (N/N) do to this grumpy Swansea to give her this treatment?

The inside of the room is what I expected. The majority of the pods are covered with foam, only a single pod remain visible to the naked eye.

I waited for him to speak. Swansea's arms are crossed while leaning his back on the metal wall. I, on the other hand, gaze at the pods with an analytical gaze.

Since (N/N) knowledge was inserted into my brain, my eyes are seeing the pod not as it is, but instead, view it as a bunch of smaller pieces like legos that I can dissemble piece by piece or resemble the pieces again.

"I'm your father"

I turned around faster than the speed of light.

Am I hearing this correctly?

"Well, I assumed that you haven't known that yet. I might as well say it" Swansea shuffle my hair though his expression remains unfazed for some reason.

In the game, Swansea did mention that he had children and a wife. He implied that that's one of those rewards he'd get when he changed his alcoholic habit, but I didn't expect that (N/N) would be one of his children.

"Wait, did anyone know of it?" I said while getting flush every time Swansea gave me affection. It feels so unreal when Swansea gives a slight affection other than Daisuke.

Swansea is normally not an affectionate character, his always angry and the only time he gives affection is to Daisuke in Daisuke's final moment.

"The only person who knows of our connection is Captain Curly. The other did not know of this since they were quite new to this crew, and besides, I don't see the reason telling them you're my daughter" Swansea said.

So that explains why he trusted me so much, he didn't even hesitate to chat in this room he'd been guarding. What else is that I don't know of?

Swansea then tells me many things like how I, or more specifically, (N/N), have a fondness for machines but neglect emotional connection due to (N/N)'s timidness, etc.

I've gained so much information about (N/N) during this conversation. I can take advantage of it so that I can save everyone from their destined doomed.

However, there's still an unanswered question that has been bothering me...

Where does (Y/N) belong?

🧪☣️☠️⚗️🤢

After Swansea told me about (N/N)'s whole story, we got out of the room and walked through the corridor. He insisted that he should walk with him through the living room.

I didn't refuse. I mean, Swansea expression shows the expression of sudden apprehension. But I get the reason.

I don't know of any memory of our bonding as a father and daughter relationship. All I could do was to make up for it, even if I'm not really (N/N)...

Or maybe I am (N/N) and not (Y/N) - ENOUGH OF THAT! I need to be practical, there's still a problem arising and I need to figure something out to fix it.

"How are you feeling?" Swansea said, surprisingly calm.

"I'm good"

"I see..."

Well, that was awkward. I was actually gonna blurt out the word 𝒅𝒂𝒅 but it feels weird, but I don't want Swansea to feel sad. The least thing I could do is to indicate that (N/N) still view him as her father or I still view him as my father.

"I'm sorry, I can't remember you, dad" I said, still struggling to say the word 𝒅𝒂𝒅. But I could see that it made Swansea less apprended which is worth the shot.

"Don't worry, I'll find a way to fix this ship. I might need your brain in this. Will you help your old man, (N/N)?" Swansea gently smile.

Fixing this ship? That actually came to my thought a while ago. But, am I good with it? I mean, I did fix Daisuke's phone, though I doubt my abilities to fix a huge spaceship.

Although, the thought of it gives me hope. It gives me so much adrenaline working on those machines.

"Let's start tomorrow. Daisuke will help as well. Though I hadn't informed him yet. Would you tell him the whole thing, (N/N)?"

"Yes, of course. I'll find him right away. I need to give him his phone as well anyway" I said.

"And also, (N/N)"

"What is it?"

"If Jimmy bothered you again, tell me about what he did. I'm gonna give him the taste of his own medicine" Swansea embraced me with a hug. I was startled but didn't resist, "I'm gonna find a way to fix this, don't worry about it"

I hug him back...

We bid our farewell. Swansea went to the living room and me to the bathroom to inform Daisuke. But where is the bathroom? I have never seen it in both games and while roaming the ship...

I guess I'm gonna wander again.

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Daisuke let out a long sigh while staring at himself in the mirror. He was in the bathroom, though he couldn't tell if it meant that it would comfort him because the light emitted red which didn't help.

"Everything gonna be okay" Daisuke muttered to himself. His face getting sweaty and his breath became heavy, "It's always going to be just fine. We'll all be safe, I'll be a good mechanic, my mom would be proud of me, Swansea will acknowledge me, and... and... and..."

He forces himself to smile in front of his reflection. But his fearful eyes betrayed him.

Daisuke knelt beside the toilet as if a puppy hiding from the coldness of the atmosphere. He then hugs his legs and looks down.

"I hate this, I don't like this feeling, I wanna be happy" He muttered. His hands reached the top of his arm and started scratching in continuous motion.

His skin become red, and a moment later, rashes started to show, and then slits starts to appear on his sharp nails that had repeatedly been rubbing his fragile skin.

Slight blood slid though he didn't stop, he continued over and over again.

"Please, I don't want this feeling anymore"