A Galactic Kiss

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by CJoy1468

by CJoy1468

When I was a little lovesick kid, I thought a kiss on the lips was genuinely the pinnacle of human existence.

That once I finally had my first true kiss, my life would be complete.

I think I misunderstood what a kiss was.

In my 7 year old head,

'kiss' and 'cure' were synonyms.

I've had my first kiss by now. And some more than that.

And don't get me wrong, it was beautiful in a majestically, new, first-time learning how to walk sort of way.

But I didn't feel how I thought I would, I didn't feel complete.

Time didn't stop, the world didn't explode and I didn't feel as bright as the stars simply because my lips touched someone else's.

I made 2 discoveries that day.

1: That the physical action of a kiss is hardly what life revolves around, or even creates enough experience to feel a vast array of emotions.

2: That the limits of the human experience are infinite, and therefore can never be complete.

To simplify-

1: A kiss is hardly a fragment of life.

2: Never feeling complete is a wonderful thing.

Things that have made me feel more than a kiss:

What comes before a kiss.

Being in an art museum.

The feeling of staying up late, knowing you can sleep in the next day.

I'd kiss someone again. Just this time I know what it feels like, and what to expect.

I'm still, somehow, holding out for that perfect 'true loves', time stopping kiss.
The one that feels like what everyone says it should.

I don't just want to kiss someone,

-I want to feel all they describe a first-true-loves kiss should feel like.

And let time stop for a little more than second.

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I want to kiss you until all I can taste is your lips, the stars blur over our heads and we forget we're human for a bit. I want to be touched and held until my body can only feel love radiating from your body into my skin and forgets what pain feels like. I want to fall apart together in comfort and safety and collapse into an irrational, sobbing, emotion fueled darkness until our bodies and souls find rest in each others, and we learn to want to live again.

Just to be, and kiss, and live in a fairytale for a bit and feel-

Complete. For the one and only time in my life.