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Nov 6th

Hi my loves, it's Sunn,

I woke up to the most disappointing election results. I'm not gonna get too political but hopefully they were just as disappointing for you. Regardless of it all. Here is my dream for today.

I was making a movie with some people from school that I know. It was going pretty well. One of the girls I was making it with was a super popular girl I thought was really pretty. While one of the guys is also a popular guy who had a crush on me.

I got the girl's instagram and stalked her page. Turns out she makes music too and does really fun music videos. Super cool! We started talking and lowkey kinda flirting but I paid no attention to the guy which made him kind of upset. I didn't care though.

And that's all I remember.

Now for an update on my last dream about the kidnapping.

Yesterday, I downloaded a dating app, and one of my matches looked EXACTLY LIKE THE GUY TRYING TO KIDNAP ME.

I have never wanted to delete a dating app so quickly. I think I understand the dream now.

Often in my past, I would date a lot just because it was fun and gave me a sense of comfort, but the obsession with it kind of threw me off my path with music, writing and my art.

I originally went to the hill in my dream because it was a place of comfort for me and I wanted to relax, but quickly realized that it wasn't the case and I almost lost my life.

This is particularly really honest and embarrassing of me to share. But I know now that I can't use dating as my escape anymore. I need to commit to myself and my work. Maybe if I would've stayed in the hospital and did my job as a nurse, all of my patients wouldn't be dead.

Anyways, I hope this isn't too deep for you guys. I haven't deleted the dating app just yet but I will be staying off of it. I'll be back soon

Love, Sunn