i don't try to hide the fact that i'm queer. in fact, it makes me feel a little empowered. very empowered, actually. there's nothing wrong with being queer, and i shouldn't have to feel like there is something wrong - no one does. and, actually, i try to make it more obvious that i'm queer, and i hope people will get the hint. but it's not really simple, because you never know why someone will change how they perceive you.
today i went to school. i was sat behind some of the boys in my class - i think they're all religious. one of them randomly turned to me and asked me if i liked balls; i told him no, so he felt the need to say something to his boytoys about me being a lesbian. then (as i stated in the other chapter), i told him that i'm not exactly lesbian, so he said something about me being bisexual - and wouldn't stop talking about it until the end of the lesson. whether it was questions about it or just pure ignorance, it annoyed the fuck out of me.
but there's one who supports. he's actually really nice, he said he supports me, i think he just puts on the stone face around his friends. it's a bit sad, to be honest. but i'm glad to have a supporter that isn't even a close friend.
i'm starting a new topic in personal development, and i think it promotes allyship. i like that, it makes me feel more included. all the other topics are just about drugs and smoking, and they never mention the things that the staff are always talking about, like racism, and, obviously, homophobia.
while being queer does have its perks in my opinion, it very obviously has a lot of letdowns. allies come from every direction, but so do the homophobes, and most of the time, it's totally unpredictable. one minute, the kindest allies are all over you, and then the next, there's a cult of homophobes bashing you and talking about god. frankly, when they do it to me, i don't give two fucks. but other people will feel insecure about it, and i don't blame them at all. it's hard.
however, it will always be ok. and i wish i had someone to tell that to, but no one i know has been brave enough to come out yet. all i want, is for those targeted by homophobia to know that they're worth millions. no one should spread hatred. no one deserves hatred.
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arguments of homophobia
Non-Fictiona diary-ish project i made based on the queer community and why homosexuality exists in every species, but homophobia only exists in our species as humans.
