The Tragedy of Marco

Chapter XII

Obviously calmed down, Jordan sat back in his car and continued the ride. The road became rougher and soon it was just a rocky forest path. After half and hour of ride thick forest ended the route. He had to park his car on a small lawn. To his surprise there was another car parked a little bit further. At first he was confused but then his mouth curved into a smile. "That's it!" Hope filled Jordan as he started walking towards the car and then towards a small lodge located a little bit further.

*

My dearest,

First of all, I want to point out that it's none of your fault. Don't blame yourself, thinking you could help. It was a decision made a long time ago. It was just a matter of time. You were always great to me; in fact you were the only people who stayed with me for so long. You and Gabrielle. Thank you. And sorry... sorry for not always being there when you needed me. Sorry for being such a mess most of the time.

Oscar! Thank you for showing me that it is possible to meet a person who could completely understand me. Thank you for being there when my heart broke, for being my tree when I needed someone to hold me up. Thank you for showing me all the beautiful sides of life. And thank you for sticking up for me when I needed it the most. I am sorry that I wasn't a friend you deserved and I am sorry if I ever hurt you. I want you to know that I had tried hard, but I didn't succeed. I love you. You'll always have a special place in my heart.

Clara, my little friend, thank you for all the talks on the roof. They were very special to me. They filled me with hope when I needed it the most. Please don't stop going there. Go, and have a good time just as we had. And take some wine with you. I won't write more. I don't have to. Climb up the roof and my mind will speak to you. Again and again.

Dan, buddy, first of all I want to say that I am so happy you were the one who sold me drugs that day. I don't know how my nights would pass by if you weren't in my life. Thank you for all talks and laughs we have had. And thank you for all mature advice you gave to me. They surprised and helped me a lot. More than you might think. I am leaving some money in the envelope. I believe I borrowed it from you a month ago. I know it is probably not important to you right now, but I want you to spend them on something you love – you know ...

There were a lot of people in my life, good and bad. And as they came and as they went, you stood still next to me. Thank you all for that. Thank you for staying with me. And I want you all to know that this is not a suicide letter. It's a thank you letter. Because I had promised you that I'd never write you a suicide letter. You thought I'd be able to live but I guess I am not. You have the right to feel disappointed. But, don't cry. Be happy. We had some great time together, hadn't we?

I am sorry I haven't written more, but I think it's pointless. You all know me so well. You know reasons, falls and in-betweens. I love you, and know that you will always be in my heart. You made my life special and I am so grateful for that. Because even now, as I am writing this, thinking of you makes me feel warm. If there is heaven and hell, you will for sure get another letter from me.

Love,

Marcy Marc

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Jordan stood in front of a wooden cottage. Doors were slightly opened, but he didn't enter. Again, a feeling of interrupting Marco's privacy overwhelmed him. But this time, it was different. This case was no longer just a part of his job. It has become his personal experience, his personal growth. When he accepted the job, he didn't think it would change his life so drastically. But it did. And for Jordan, Marco would never again be just a case. As Jordan invaded Marco's privacy, Marco did the same with his. Step by step Marco changed the path of Jordan Harrison's life.