Grief- A Poem About Loss and Letting Go.

Grief

My mind's swirling and I can't think
Each noise reminds me, taken to the brink
Of tears
Of fears
Of trying hard not to cry
In front of everyone
Asking why
Why.
Confusion starts to settle in
I don't know what to think
It's like playing against a master in chess
In the past yet in the moment
I don't know what to do.
When I hear the sound
See the sight
Smell it
Ears grow sharper
Surely, this might all be a dream?
However, on the next day
You hear that song
That I once shared passionately
Mementos remind me of the norm
My lost true form
The one that contained happy, clear headed me.
But please don't forget
That love conquers all
And even when tears lace my cheeks
In quiet unspoken times.
In my room, on the toilet...
Sipping a tea while watching the stars
It's truly gone
But I don't want to
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I want them back
Now.
Give me a time machine
How to erase my mistakes
Let me change
I'll do anything-be a better person; leave the door closed.
Your bumbling figure
Your ability to smile through the dark-
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Let go.
Life is calling; there's worse out there. For all those memories you've shared with them
Have left a mark on my skin, in my mind.
Have
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I'll find you, you'll find me.
One day we'll be together,
In eternity.