The first to last feels

You and the afternoon

We can make it work
We have all the power over it
We are together and we can change it
We always make it work
We always do
We are always together
We are
Can we be?

What are you saying
What are you trying to do
What is all this
Why are you doing this to me
Calm silent relaxed
She answered I can't do this with myself again

I don't want to have flashbacks
I don't want to be hurt
I don't want to have panic attacks
I DONT WANT TO FALL AGAIN

Realization struck
Voice cracked
Gentle stream rolled down with no end
Heart ached with infinite sorrow
I lost my favorite person
I lost my dearest being
I lost my guide
I lost the one who loved me unconditionally
I lost the one who supported me
I lost the one who tolerated me
I lost the one most precious to me
I lost so much
I LOST YOU

I begged you
I cried before you
I gave my all sincere apologies
I fought for you
I WANT YOU

I'll give you this last chance
You told my gone soul
I'll try my best to forget this
You told my broken heart
I'll try to forgive you
You told my faded self

I wish I could tell you I have changed
I wish I could tell you I am changing
I wish I could tell you I want to change
I wish I could change the past
I wish I could TAKE BACK MY WORDS

I promise myself to be mature
I promise myself not to burst
I promise myself not to go this low again

I will take care of you ,not let you down
I will love you , not hurt you again
I will protect you , not leave you alone
I will be with you

I hope I get the chance to show you
my care my love my change
I hope you take me back from where you left me at