was it my fault I was born?

Not My Room

I woke up before any of my brothers did. My eyes were puffy, my cheeks burned from the tears yesterday and my chest hurt whenever I move fast.

I walked out of the bed walking to the little balcony in the room.

The cold wind shivered through my cloth, my hair flattered behind my back and it was the fist time I let my hair away from covering my face.

I walked closer to the railings not realizing that I've got too close to falling, until someone grabbed my shirt and pulled me backwards harshly.

"What the hell are you thinking!" Elijah yelled in my face. "Are you trying to die or something!"

I kept looking at his face and some painful tears rolled down my cheeks making him realize the state I'm in.

"Hey, I'm just worried don't cry. Why is your face like that." He cupped my face touching my puffy cheeks.

I keep staring at him, I didn't feel like saying anything, but I stopped crying.

"Come on you're gonna have the last checkup until we go back home okay? Now go change into the clothes left there on the table."

I nod slightly moving my face away from his hands going back inside.

I go to the table where the clothes are folded.

I choose a sweater and some wide legged jeans taking them in with the bathroom with me, taking a fast shower in the small shower there and changed into them.

When I got out the same doctor from yesterday was waiting for me.

Alex and Edward weren't here anymore, it was just Elijah and the doctor.

The doctor checked up and me. She discussed with Elijah that I might need therapy sessions, but I'm definitely not going to those.

After that two muscular men got in. They really looked scary, a little punch could get you a serious problem.

They took the clothes and some other things that belonged to me.

Then me and Elijah walked out of the hospital and reached to the parking lot where we got into a very expensive looking car.

I sat in the backseat and Elijah sat in the passenger seat, I was confused first, but then one of the muscular men sat in the front seat so I figured out that Elijah isn't the one driving.

"Feeling better?" Asked me Elijah.
"Yeah..." I mumbled to him.

It didn't take long until we got back to the mansion. As soon as I got in all of my brothers we're sitting in the living room as if they were waiting for us.

"I-ill g-go to my r-room." I told Elijah and was about to walk to the stairs before Alex talked.

"Wait, your room is being maintained Edward said you'll stay in his room for this night."

"I-I c-can just s-sleep in the guest r-rooms."

I got so nervous since Axel, Asher and Ace were all there too looking at me.

"You can't sleep there they're not prepared, no one has used them in years." Elijah told me.

"O-oh...." I look down totally nervous.

Edward came after a little. He looked so tired from work probably.

"You're back, you're sleeping in my room today, clothes and everything is prepared don't touch things that don't belong to you."
He said coldly and walked upstairs to his room and I followed him.

As soon as we got in the room he took of his suit jacket hanging it on a hanger on the back of the door.

"Do you need to shower or use the bathroom?"

"N-no I sh-showerd in th-the hospital."

I said and then he got his towel and went to the bathroom.

His room didn't change a lot from since before I left, I always used to hide in his room when I played hide and seek with silas.

I looked into the closet where my clothes are supposed to be, I found pajamas, but they were too short and I'm definitely not going to where those.

So I just decide to stay in what I'm already wearing since they're comfortable.

I lay down on the bed, and after a while Edward came out of the bathroom.

And first the first time ever I've seen him in something other than a suit.
He wore some sweatpants with a simple white t-shirt.