Heart Mediation

Does knowing me more lead to loving me less?

I often wonder if getting to know me better means they'll love me less. At first, it feels easy. i probably showed them my best side, the fun and happy parts. But as we spend more time together, the layers start to peel away. I worry that what's underneath might not be as appealing as what they first saw.

As i let them in, I think about the awkward moments that show my true self. Sometimes I say the wrong thing or go quiet when I should speak up. I find myself worrying about things that don't really matter, but they take over my mind. I can't help but wonder if, as they see these sides of me, they start to pull back. It's hard not to feel like my flaws might push them away.

I know I can't always be perfect. I have to be real with them, but that means showing parts of meI'm not proud of. I'm scared they'll notice the things I try to hide the anxiety, the doubt, the messy feelings. I'm not just worried about losing them; I'm worried about showing them the parts of me that are hard to face.

Sometimes, I think it might have been better when they didn't know me as well. Maybe that version of me was easier to love. But I want to believe that love can grow deeper as we share our real selves. Still, it's hard to shake the feeling that the more I show them, the more I risk losing them.

I wonder what they think as they get to know me more. Do they see things in me they didn't notice before? Are there moments when they remember why they liked me in the first place? I hope they still see something in me that makes them want to stick around. But I can't shake the worry that knowing me more might make them think twice.

In the end, I keep asking myself: Does knowing me more lead them to love me less? I just hope that, despite my flaws, there's still a part of me that feels worth loving. I want to believe that the real me can connect with them in a way that makes us both feel understood, even if it's not perfect.

Does knowing me more lead you to love me less? Sometimes, the deeper we go, the harder it becomes to stay.