poèmes pour écrire mes pensées ____poems to write my toughts

November

November has always been sad

but now that you're gone

that im all alone

i feel mad

mad that i still think of you

i wake up thinking about you

i brush my teeth thinking about you

i dress up thinking about you

i will never see the streets the same way

than before you looked my way

the benches we used to sit on, speak on, laugh on, kiss on

will never in my head be gone

they mean something to me

something so uneasy

when i see the color blue

i see you

some words that you used to say

will always sound like you

even if you didnt stay

my heart reminds me of you

of course its better this way

but god danm i miss you

i actually dont miss you

i miss the guy i talked to

the one you acted to be 

until i was able to see

to see clearly 

that the way you looked at me

was not love but money

the way you talked to me

trying to convince me

of things i didnt want to be

i thougt november would this year be funny

boo baskets and a lover for me

now i dont know where to go

dont know what i know

feeling stupid enough

i thought i was tough

thought i was smart

you've made me feel stupid

thought you had a heart

turns out you're not cupid.

November has always been sad 

but this year its really bad.