poèmes pour écrire mes pensées ____poems to write my toughts

your fault

it is your fault that now

i feel like a cow

that there is no one i could allow

to be in my heart somehow

i feel like i've been stabbed

the energy that you dragged

out of my body that you've grabbed

and i hope you feel sad

that you broke me in pieces

and in all of the creases

is where the piece is

where i cant see your face

is a safe space

but i cant find this place

hidding from the toughts of you is a big maze

its like i cant breathe

i always feel like you are near

i feel like anytime you could appear

im always in fear 

telling myself that maybe next year

i will stop to hear

your voice in my ear

as if you were my dear

i cant stop

changing my top

cause what if out of no where you pop

in a random shop

and see me 

i want you to still think of me

like the queen of beauty

like the girl you've made me be

it is your fault that still

today i need to fill

the space you left to refill

im going to need some advil

for the headache that you've caused

the sleep that i've lost

i think that i must

let go of the dust

built up on my heart

but it is hard

to leave the empty yard 

that you left where there was my heart