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Serai Monae Ramírez // 18 // Brand Ambassador // Artist

I unlocked the door and walked into the living room "mama what happened?" She had a worried look on her face and my dad sat on the couch with his hands in head "mama?"

"La abuela está de vuelta en el hospital" [Granny is back in the hospital]

She was doing so good without being in the hospital like I said if my abuela goes I'm afraid that Imma be lying in her casket "mama why is she back?"

My dad stood up and slowed walked over to me "we just came back from the hospital and the Doctors say that her illness is back, she is weak right now but you know your abuelita is going to fight through it".

"Is that why you've been in and out of the hospital with her? And you didn't tell me?" Tears were welling up in my eyes thinking about if my abuela was really to pass away what I'd even do with myself, even if they believed they doing it to help me what if I couldn't get a goodbye?

"She's going to be okay Serai, she did once and she'll do it again" my dad didn't even look confident saying that to me I nodded my head regardless of what I thought nodding my head he put his arms around me with my mama joining in.

Their embraces made me break down I was scared the first time my abuela got diagnosed now I'm terrified. My whole body was crippling with anxiety I tried to change my attitude and started to think positive "come to church with us tomorrow".

"Okay" I wiped my tears and left the living room I can't believe this is happening for the second time.

I hate to think so negative about the situation but my abuela fought so hard the first time and since it's stronger I doubt she'll make it and that's what getting me the most. I took out some clothes to change into and placed them on my bed.

I put on my R&B playlist to help clear my mind I turned up my music and let out the biggest sigh, this is not the type of news I wanted to hear I needed to hear that my abuela was going to live a healthy life the first attack of her illness already weakened her body plus her age? God better do his thing because I can't do this.
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I wasn't planning on going to go back to Kay's apartment because I wanted to cry myself to sleep at the same time I didn't want to be alone with my thoughts.

I sprayed on my fragrances then picked up my purse to put in a few blunts I had rolled up, charger, lighter, lip balms, phone, keys and gum.

I don't think Kay peeped that I bought towels, toothbrushes and body washes for me to use, he'll probably notice when he starts to put everything in their rightful spot. I knew Kay would ask at some point for me to stay with him so I had to prepared.

I put the strap to my purse on my shoulder I changed my house slides to my crocs then left my room. My phone pinged with a notification so I took it out to see that my uber was outside. I quickly went to my parent's room to let them know that I'll be back, gently knocking on the door I waited for a response before I pushed it open.