𝐃𝐞𝐬𝐞𝐫𝐭𝐞𝐝

C12

Keyamani Anderson
Paris, France
12:00 pm
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I had a good talk with Mari last night even though I didn't end up telling her what I thought about me and Chase. I didn't want to make her rant session about me but I think we helped each other out overall.

I've high key been avoiding Chase since yesterday, it just gets awkward every time we talk. But instead of sitting around and basically hiding from him, I decide to tour Paris with my camera of course. I wanted a pretty simple outfit so I went with a black and brown mesh long sleeve shirt, some blue jeans, my doc martens, and this plush bear beanie.

"Where you going?" Chase asked as I was about to leave the hotel room. "Uh just going for a walk," I stammer. "Let me come with," he says walking closer to me. "Oh I kind of wanted to go by myself. Get some pictures and stuff, I feel more inspired that way," I tell him the half truth.

"Oh okay," he says slightly defeated. "I'll see you later," I say walking out the door.

A part of me feels bad for not saying anything to him but then again I don't know what to say. "Oh I don't wanna talk to you anymore because I know this isn't going to end well," I say sarcastically thinking out loud. "Oop," I look around hoping no one heard me.

I stopped next to this beautiful cathedral, churches built back in the day are actually so pretty. I put the macro lens on my camera to get the whole building in frame. The view from across the street was far better than standing right next to it.

I took a few more pictures before I continued my walk. There was a park near by so I headed that way. The park has a Peony garden and fully bloomed Peonies are my favorite flower by far. I think I took about a million pictures of the flowers before I sat down.

Quickly being reminded by my predicament I let out an exasperated sigh. "Hey girl," Someone says to me. I look up and it's Serenity the Osama guy's girlfriend. "Hey how are you?" I stand up to hug her. "I'm good I'm good just needed a breather," she says sitting down.

"Girl you and me both," I agree, sitting back down. "So what are you getting a breather from?" She asks warmly. I don't know what it is but I feel oddly safe with Serenity. It's like I can just tell she's a genuine person.

"Not gonna yiee, Chase," I admit, feeling the relief of telling someone. "Ou shit. What happened?" She asks in a semi serious manner. "I just feel like we're moving too fast and it'll end up a waste of time by the end of summer," I explained to her.

She nods her head processing my dilemma. "Why do you think it'll be a waste of time?" She asks slightly confused. I realized she doesn't really know the full story. "I feel like it's a proximity thing, me and him only know each other because of the internship. Nobody else around, we were bound to form some kind of connection. I just don't think it's real," I rant to her.

"Yeah I can see why that's frustrating. Hell I wouldn't know what to do in that situation either," she shook her head still thinking. "Literally and it's like I don't want to say anything because he didn't do anything wrong. He treats me good, great actually, super nice, even though he can be a pain in my ass, he's never wronged me," I continue my rant.

"Well if he treats you good and hasn't wronged you at all, why would you want to run from it? I mean really good guys are hard to find don't throw him away," Serenity says to me. "Mhm.. Why you just clock tea though," I giggle. "I'm for real! If he ain't giving you a reason to leave why leave? Now if he start fucking up dump that nigga and don't think twice about it," She says continuing to spit facts.

"You're right. Thank you Rynnie I really do appreciate it," I say giving her a nickname. "Nobody has ever called me that," she laughs.

We continued to talk about any and everything, including her talking about how annoying Osama can be.

"But no I went to BK concert with my friends not that long ago and I loved it," she says grabbing her phone. "No way! I love BK she so hard. Did she perform The Way?" I ramble highkey fan girling. "Girl yess, she played LVL5 part one and two," she tells me. "I wish I could've went," I shake my head.

"Next time you should definitely go," she suggests. "Oh trust, I will," I giggled. "Amari calling me," she says picking up her ringing phone. "Okay okay,"

"He here to pick me up, I can have him take you back to your hotel if you want," she offers. "No it's okay I think Imma find more stuff to take pictures of. Thank you though, for everything," I say before giving her a hug. "No problem boo, I'll see you later," she says hugging me back. "Later," I say before she walks away.

Before I go back to the hotel I want to get some food. To be real, I miss American food. Everything here is either bland as fuck or too salty no in between. "Oh thank God," I say approaching a McDonald's.

I love McDonald's, whenever twitter be going on them "you eat McDonald's ew" rants I keep quiet. Cause me personally, I'm going to fuck it up every time.

I walk up to the self order kiosk thinking about what I want. "Nuggets or mcchicken? Nuggets or mcchicken?" I ask myself. "Boafum," I finally decided. I used my points to get a free large fry and got me a milkshake as well.

As I'm waiting for my food I realize I should've gotten cookies too. I head back to the kiosk because I can't pass up McDonald's cookies. My phone started to ring, it was Chase.

"Hey," I answered the call. "Hey pretty where you at?" He asked trying to look around me as if he were here. "McDonald's, do you want me to get you something?" I asked him sitting in the order screen. "Can I get some fries please?" He asked. "And when you coming back? You been gone like all day,"

He was right, it was getting pretty late. "I'm on the way back right now, I just wanted to get some food," I informed him. "Okay bet. We can watch that vampire show when you get here too," he says referring to Vampire Diaries. "Am I hearing this right? You actually want to watch The Vampire Diaries?" I giggled placing the order for the fries and cookies.

"Never mind fuck that show suck my dick," he says getting defensive. I gasp offendedly "don't disrespect real TV like that ever again,"

"That shit is trash," he shakes his head. "You know what.. I'll see you later bye," I say hanging up on him. "Not finna piss me off on MY phone," I murmured shaking my head.

They called my order number with the food first then the cookies and fries shortly after. After getting the food I made an uber since I didn't feel like walking all the way back to the hotel.

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