FINDING MY WAY TO YOU(TSHIRILETSO AND NKOSINATHI)

The wrong way

Love's beauty can mask its brutal power. It can shatter our essence, leaving despair in its wake. Tender touches turn to painful reminders, whispered promises to haunting echoes of betrayal. Love's sharp edges expose hidden vulnerabilities, slicing through defenses and leaving scars that refuse to heal. Its departure leaves an enduring ache, begging the question: was fleeting joy worth lasting agony?

My name is Tshiriletso Mokoena.Im a Art therapist.Its kinda like helping people by making art, yeah something like that .I'm 26 and live in Soshanguve in an Apartment.

I have boyfriend his name is Katlego .lf I were to describe my love for Katlego, I would say it's like the brightest sunshine on a warm summer day. It radiates warmth, happiness, and vitality. Every moment with him is a treasure, filled with laughter, adventure, and deep connection.

Katlego's kind heart, infectious smile, and unwavering optimism captivate me. His compassion, intelligence, and sense of humor make me feel seen, heard, and cherished.

With Katlego, every day is a gift, every conversation a delight, and every shared experience a memory to cherish. My love for him knows no bounds, and I'm grateful for our journey together

Last night I had a client with  the most painful story I've ever heard.She got raped by her Stepfather whom infected her with HIV at 16 yrs old .Worst part no one even believed her .As she was telling me her story I was already in tears already breaking down so I suggested we fingerpaint with only blue paint .I then asked her to tell me her story and how she delt with it .She started crying on the painting making the painting drip

Her:Ohh no I ruined the painting!

She said this her voice breaking,I was already in tears clearly breaking down but I had to be strong for her

Me: It's okay baby I think this makes it unique

She smiled

*10 minutes later*

We finished and got cleaned and she left

I sat on my little couch in the corner of my office tryna figure out how men can do that to such sweet girls.

It was now knockoff time and time to go home

I get in my car and drive until I get home ,Me and Katlego live together so I usually get home last .I usually find him in our room or the living room.That night was a little off but I just ignored it .

I call out for  Katlego .I searched the whole house looking for him and I finally go and check in the guestroom.I go to our guest room as soon as I open the door I'm met with the most horrifying scene

I see a girl on top of my so called boyfriend

Me:Katlego....

I say my voice literally breaking ,I back up and walk away

Katlego:Babe nka hlalosa! (Babe I can explain )

He pushes the girl off him and wear his pants running after me

Me:Katlego, you're disgusting. Cheating on me? Behind my back? With someone else? You're dead to me.

How could you do this to me? To us? We built a life together, shared our deepest secrets, and promised to love and protect each other. And this is how you repay me? By throwing it all away for a cheap thrill?

You've shattered my heart, destroyed my trust, and left me questioning everything. Every moment, every laugh, every tear we shared – was it all a lie?

I thought you were my rock, my partner, my best friend. But now, I realize you're just a stranger who wore a mask of love and deceit.

Don't bother explaining or justifying. Your actions speak louder than words. You've ruined us, and I'll never forgive you.Ke nagana gore ke no senya 2 years ya nako ya ka ka piece ya masepa go swana le wena (I guess I just wasted 2 years of my time on a piece of shit like you)

Leave. Now. Take your lies, your cheating heart, and your empty promises with you. I don't want to see your face, hear your voice, or feel your touch again.

You've broken me, Katlego. But I'll rise from these ashes, stronger and wiser. And you'll be left with the guilt, the shame, and the knowledge that you lost the one person who truly loved you

Katlego:Babe please I don't have anywhere to go,ke maswabi (I'm sorry)

Me:Katlego I  DON'T GIVE A FUCK GET OUT!OHH AND TAKE THIS WHORE WITH YOU!

I say glancing at this unshameless girl

They left and I just went to my room and let all my tears just fall, that's when I realised I had been holding them .I started playing music ,I played Traitor by Olivia Rodrigo

God, I wish that you had thought this through
Before I went and fell Inlove with you
When she's sleeping in the bed we made
Don't you dare forget about the way you betrayed me
Cause I know that you'll never feel sorry
For the way I hurt ,yeah
You'd talk to her
When we were together
You gave me your word
But that didn't matter

I feel like my entire world has been shattered into a million pieces. The pain is suffocating, making it hard to breathe. Betrayal, anger, and sadness are swirling inside me like a toxic storm. How could Katlego do this to me? I thought our love was unbreakable, but now I'm left wondering if anything was ever real. Every memory, every laugh, every whispered promise - it's all tainted now. I'm consumed by questions: Who was she? How long did it go on? Did he ever truly love me? The thought of his hands, his lips, his words shared with someone else makes my skin crawl. I'm numb, yet every nerve is on fire. My heart, once full of love and trust, now bleeds with hurt and humiliation. I'm lost, searching for a way to pick up the fragments of my shattered heart and move forward, but the weight of his filth is crushing me.How could the one person you love,hurt you?