Mysterious

Chapter 11

After we ate our food, I helped Kim in the kitchen.
I think this is my moment before Marshall comes here.
I really want to tell her now so I can leave after. I don't want to see him.

"Kim.."
"What's wrong?"
"I.. I need to tell you something."
"Come on let's go sit down you're worrying me."
We sat down and she took my hands in to her.
"I did something really bad. And I just don't know how to say it."
"Baby, we're all humans. Nobody is perfect. Tell me how can I help you?"

"You're going to hate me so much Kim. I don't even know how to say it."
"For Christ Sake you're freaking me out. What happened? Did you kill someone? Or wait.. are you pregnant?"
"What no! No Kim im not pregnant and I didn't kill nobody. Jesus is that how you really think about me?"
"Mmmh.. I don't know what you have in your mind. Everything is possible while you're alive."

"Kim I.."
"Mommy daddy is here!" Hailie yells
Fuck.
"You can tell me later okay?"
"No I'll go get going. I'll let you guys have some family time."
"What are you saying there. You're part of the family as well. Now come on. I won't let you go this and the next week." She said and grabbed my hand

This is so bad. I shouldn't be here at all. I can't see him and he doesn't have to see me.
Fuck.. what am I gonna do now?
He's maybe going to say something to Kim and i don't want that. I want to be the one to tell her the truth.

"Daddy look this is Jessica." Hailie took my hand and I was not facing Marshall
"You know what sweetheart. Daddy actually knows Jessica."
Holy shit, nah please god PLEASE MAKE HIM SHUT HIS MOUTH.
"How do you know my daddy?" Hailie looks at me
"Well your dad- father and I we kinda have the same job. I meet him in the studio a couple of times."
"Are you going to do a song with uncle?" Alaina asked
And Marshall looked at me smiling knowing god damn well I will never do a song with him.
"Maybe one day baby." Marshall smiled at the girls

Later that night:

I was in the kitchen making myself some tee because I started to get cold.
Marshall and Proof are still here and honestly I do know he's here to spend some time with the girls but Hailie and Alaina are asleep now he could leave.
But he doesn't and I really don't want to think that he wants to talk to me but I guess thats his plan.

"Whatcha doing?" Proof came in the kitchen
"Jesus you scared me."
"Sorry girl."
"Im making some tee, you want some too?"
"Nah im good thank you.." he smiled "so.. did you told her already?"
"No. I was about to say it but you two came and she made me stay because I wanted to leave."

"So when are you going to tell her?"
"Maybe later when we get to bed."
"How long are you going to be here?"
"1 to 2 weeks maybe. I'll see."
"Aight, look I know you don't want to talk to him but you really need to give him a chance at least talking."
"Im going to talk to him after I told Kim about what happened between us. Until then I won't talk a word with him."

Proof shook his head and left the kitchen.
What? I really don't want to talk to him. Not until Kim knows what happened.
I know what he's going to do once he gets me all alone and that shit won't happen again.

"Im going to sleep. Good night." I said walking upstairs
"But you still didn't told me what you wanted to say." Kim said and I immediately saw on Marshall's face that he knew what she was talking about
"I uh.. I'll tell you tomorrow morning. I'm really tired right now."
"Okay, sleep well. Oh and Marshall is going to sleep here tonight he's going to take Hailie and Alaina tomorrow outside with him if you want you can also go with them."

Is she fucking joking right now?

"I think I'll let the girls to have some fun." I said "good night guys." I smiled and walked upstairs to the guest room

This is so fucking ridiculous. But maybe he really stays because of the girls and not because im here. Because that will be fucking crazy.
"Ugh does this house have keys?" I said to myself as I looked for the key to lock my door

I should be prepared for everything tonight.
I took some long pants and a long t-shirt I covered my body first and turn on the tv.

Marshall's pov:

When Proof called me that he saw Jessica with the girls today I immediately told him to go talk to her. And told him that im going to come to see the girls as well.
I had to come see the girls cause soon I'll leave again with work and I won't be able to see them but I also wanted to see Jessica more then ever.

Now that I've seen her its so awkward because she really acted so weird. She didn't even look at me.
Which I totally get it, but still I wish I could  have some minutes with her alone.

Proof left back to his house, he's going to pick me and the girls up tomorrow.
Kim went to her room and immediately felt asleep. I checked out on the girls and both are sleeping so beautiful.
But I was now standing in front of the room where Jessica is sleeping and I can't fucking control myself not to go inside.

So I opened the door and saw Jessica sleeping. The Tv is still on.
As I sat there for a bit and watched her sleeping I hear the door getting open. I see Kim looking at me confused.
Shit..
"What are you doing here?" She asks
"I uh.. this is not what you think. just don't start to yell or something."
"Come on out of here and talk to me." She said and I walked after her downstairs.

Shit this is so bad.

"Why were you standing in her room like that?"
"Kim look.. there is something I need to tell you."
"Oh god.. what is it? What did yo- holy shit.." she looks at me like she knew "are you.. are you in love with Jessica?"
"What? No! I mean.. she's cool and I do love to have her around but that's not what I wanted to say."

"What is then? Talk for god sake! Did you got her pregnant?"
"Oh my god Kim! No! Would you just let me talk?"
"Alright sorry.."

"Thank you. So a couple of months ago I meet Jes at one after party. Her manager and Paul also knew each other. I then asked her if she wants to come with me and the others somewhere else because I could tell she didn't wanted to be there and not because I wanted to do something. So we did make a party but in the morning when I woke up Jessica was next to me in bed. Naked just like me. Thats when I started to remember that we had sex. After that we had one more time sex in her dressing room but to be honest we both don't really know why did that happen." I look at her and she looks so in shock "but after the second time we had sex we didn't talked at all. I tried to make her talk to me but she didn't want because she then told me that you're her best friend and that she can't do this to you. After that I haven't seen her until today. I guess that's what she wanted to tell you today. She really felt miserable about what happened. So if you wanna get mad, get mad at me but don't get mad at her she didn't do anything wrong."

"Are you in love with her?"
"I.. no. Im not in love, i just can't stop thinking about her. I really want to get to know her but she never wanted."
"Marshall you are in love with her. Or you wouldn't stay in her room and look at her like that."
"Kim im not in love. I just.. fuck! I don't what i want aight. All I know is that I want to get to know her and nothing else. And again you either get mad at me now because I won't going to let you to make a whole drama tomorrow when she wakes up. She really is a true friend and its not her fault that we got drunk and all that happened."

She doesn't say a word and looks in my eyes.
"Im going to sleep. And you better keep your hands away from her or we're going to have a problem. We're going to talk about this in the morning. Good night." She said and walked back upstairs

Aight.. well she didn't reacted the way she would react when she'll hear that I fucked a other woman. But I guess shes alright with it if its Jessica.
I mean.. I would be more then happy is she wouldn't have a problem with me and Jes..

YO WHAT THE FUCK AM I EVEN TALKING HERE? Its not like im together with those two bitches.
Jesus I sound like a fucking loser, why would I even want to get to know her much better.
Im so fucking confused with what I want right now..