They ask me what my fears are
I lie
I could never tell them about you
I can never tell anyone the truth
I'm chained to you
As a prisoner you are my captor
You punish and torture me
You are the voice inside my head that tells me to do bad things, to do them to myself
Things I cannot talk about for the fear that I might break
You tell me that we are alike but I know I will never someone way you hurt me
I would never tell a girl she's unlovable, ugly, worthless, a waste of space
I would never tell a girl to hurt herself to the point that the pain just goes away
Her nerves are dead, you say
Just like she should be
Why do I give into you when you do not let me sleep at night
When you give me the worst nightmares
When you send me into a panic and all I want to do is die
But I'm not afraid of them not anymore
I'm afraid of the dark alleys in my mind
Of the fucked up world we live in
Scream
I scream because it's all in my head
I scream because none of it is real
I scream cause I feel hands on my throat, turning my voice to nothing
Erasing me from existence
Shatter
Shatter
Shatter
Stop
I've had more than enough
I'm not you I am me
I never was you
I am a person you are a feeling
I will rise above the surface
because it's over
I am over you
over my thoughts and reality
I will survive
I will love me
I will never let go
2020
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Sad Poetry
PoetrySad poems that maybe you can relate to *Disclaimer- some poems were written from when I was 15 X_X