You Don't Believe In Love? Well You're Bluff ~Jalex (Discontinued)

Do You Trust Me? Do You Believe I Love You?

~Alex's p.o.v~

I was curled up in ball on floor near my bed, tears stained in my face. Why doesn't he trust me? Why doesn't he even believe me I love him...Tears stream down my face, I haven't been myself because of him. I haven't eaten, I haven't been playing my guitar, I haven't even talked to my brother who even tried to help. I looked at my wrists seeing scarred skin, blood pouring out from them. It hurts...But I love it.  I feel like a hypocrite I told the person not to cut, but look now...I'm the fucking person who slitting there wrist right now, I was the person telling not to cut but look at me slitting my wrist as the pain from the cuts felt so good. Tears stream down as a knock was heard on my door, I didn't bother saying anything I just curled tighter into an ball drowning in my own sorrow and pain. 

"Alex...Please let me in" I heard Tom voice I took a breath, as I shook my head my guts telling me to get up and open it. But, another part of me telling me not to, I don't want him to see me like this broken, pained, dead. "Please Alex...Someone is here for you..." I felt my stomach drop, I felt my heart stop beating. I was left to utter silence, only me. I scrambled off of the floor and quickly grabbed my sweater and put it on, and walked toward the door and opened it to see Tom my brother, and someone which I thought hated me and didn't trust me looking at me. He looked at me he looked so concern, I felt tears well up in my eyes as Tom looked away from me and looked at Jack. "Please...Fix him..." Tom says as he walks down the hall to his bedroom. 

Jack gave me a small smile, "Hey Alex..." He says reaching up to touch my arm but I backed away like I was a wild animal to scared of humans to touch me. "A-Alex..Please..." He says walking inside my room I just shook my head and backed away from him, I went a bit to far as I flop down on bed I sat up and I felt tears well up in my eyes. "Please Alex...Forgive me, i'm sorry I hurt you...I'm sorry" He says walking up to me, I shook my head crawling back my back hitting against the headboard as I pulled my knees up to my chest. "Please...Alex...I'm so sorry...I never meant to hurt you...I just jumped on conclusions, i'm sorry Alex. I'm so stupid I hurt you" He says, I just looked away avoiding my gaze from his tears rolling down my cheeks. 

"Please Alex forgive me..." Jack says with pleading eyes as he sat down across from me on the bed, I looked at him and then away. I can't stand looking at him, I cut for him...I was in pain and fallen to pit of sorrow because of him. I just shook my head and looked down at my sleeved arms Jack gaze dropped from me as he follow my gaze,  "Alex....You didn't..." Jack says his voice cracking I just sighed and nodded admitting I cut...For him. "Wh-Why...Why...Is it because of me?" He ask as he crawled up to me, laying beside me I just kept my arms around my knees which is still up to my knees, "I'm so sorry Alex..." He whispers as his arms snaked around me pulling me into a hug. I didn't respond I didn't do anything I just stared at nothing, I just stared across the room. "Alex...Do you forgive me?" He ask as he lay his chin on top of my head, I thought about that...If I forgive him, he will hurt me again....

I felt tears stream down as I broke down and lay my head against his chest and cried into his shirt, "Shh..." He says rubbing comforting circles on my back. "I'm sorry Alex...I'm so sorry" His voice cracks as I sobbed into his shirt grabbing on the lower part of shirt, "W-Will you promise me something...?" I ask he nodded, "Anything, Alex..." Jack whispers as his arms around me tighten. I nodded as I took my head off of his chest and looked at him, straight in the eyes "Would you please...Not hurt me...Can you trust me? Do you believe that I love you...?" I say he looked at me, and nodded, "I promise...I trust you...I believe that you love me" He says. I looked at him as tears stream down my cheeks, tears of joy I put my head against his chest again listening to his heartbeat, "I love you..." I say. 

"I love you, too...".