Letters to Nesa, From Charlotte

Letter no. 15

"Nesa do you want to join just to say hi and good night to them?"

"Did you miss me while I was away?"

"I was looking for you."

"Let's sleep naka."

"Good night!!!"

"Good night who?"

"Good night, baby."

"Good night, baby. Let's sleep together."

"Good night. Love you."

"Love you too."

Eros was jumping and giggling on my side. He's showing me two thumbs up while wiggling his eyebrows. My wingman, supportive as ever.

To Nesa,

I still can't believe that TikTok Live happened. It feels like just yesterday we were laughing and playing Jack En Poy, and the chat was exploding with love and support.

Remember how everyone was calling us "Mom and Dad"? It was so cute and funny! I couldn't stop smiling, especially when I saw you interacting with my live. I knew that your smile is so contagious, it always brightens my day.

And speaking of the Jack En Poy game, I still can't believe I lost every single time! Eros were just too good. But honestly, it was so much fun. I loved seeing you tease me and laugh at my silly faces.

I'm so grateful for that moment. It was a perfect escape from the world, a moment of pure joy and connection.

They were teasing me about them having crush on you. I was a bit annoyed knowing I can't gatekeep you anymore. From other's point of view, you are this hottie pageant queen Nesa Mahmoodi. But for me, you are Ornpreeya. A simple pageant queen with a goofy and soft side who cried on her live during her birthday because she's away from her family and she wanted to hug her fans for supporting her.

I showed my instagram dump account. There was a video of yours posted beside my picture. On that video, you were talking about me and my clothing brand. You told your fans how attractive I am and how you always view my videos. God knows how many times I watched it and still feel the butterflies on my stomach. Damn! I even remember every lines of that video without trying to memorize it

You're like a daisy, Nesa. Simple, pure, and beautiful. You brighten up my days with your sunny smile and gentle spirit. Just like a daisy, you bring joy and peace wherever you go.

And oh, the iconic "Hello family, My name is Nesa." You virtually met Gabby and Tori, two important people in my life. You proactively introduced yourself as if telling them that you're my girlfriend.

I'm still smiling from ear to ear after that sweet goodnight message. I was a little bit drunk and had the courage to ask you join my live. Your surprise appearance on the live, that heartfelt "I love you," it sent shivers down my spine in the best way possible.

It made my night, truly. It's moments like those that make life feel so beautiful.

Thank you for always making me feel special.

-From Charlotte