I need help! I have chest pains!
They keep me up at night
It feels like I'm being choked
Air leaving my lungs as I struggle, why is that?
I can't breathe.
Sometimes they're accompanied by thoughts
Ones that also keep me up at night
Past ones, current ones, even future ones
Am I really going to have that future?
I can't breathe.
Sometimes they're accompanied by tears
I sit and hopelessly think, getting worked up
What if I don't know what to do with myself?
What if I don't have the power to stop thinking?
I can't breathe.
Sometimes they're accompanied by giving up
But what is there to give up on?
I live a good life, just sometimes regretting
Am I being dramatic right now?
I can't breathe.
Sometimes they're accompanied by hope
I'm not going to struggle that badly
I feel happy all the time, nothing is the end
But how to tell delusion from truth?
For a moment I can breathe
It leaves as quickly as it came in.
I sit with chest pains, fighting back tears
Shaking like a leaf and struggling to calm down
My head full of those overlapping thoughts
Ah...
I can't breathe.
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A.N: My first attempt at serious poetry! This one's really personal to me, average nighttime experience lol. Early morning too. Sorry if this is too edgy. Hope you enjoyed reading 🩷
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PoetryIdk anymore Partly a rant, partly a vent, and mostly for fun Inspired by my good friend J.G. :3
