Others: Did it hurt?Me: with a smile No, I'm all good. You know right, I don't feel much for these things.
But deep down, only I know how much it breaks my heart every time someone asks about him. Everything reminds me of him. A single word related to him gets me thinking about him all over again. Even a single lyric from a song makes me cry because it's so relatable to our situation, even if it's a romantic song that people enjoy listening to.
I will cherish the memories we had, be it all the texts or the one-sided memories I made when he had no idea that I existed. But it makes me feel somewhat guilty because when he said we were just friends, he was in a stressful state at that time. People said it was no fault of mine, but I still felt bad for him, regardless of the hopes he gave me and broke them into pieces, just like my heart.
What I fear the most is that I might go running back to him, even if I get a single 'hey' or 'hi'. I am scared to face those moments again when my hands start to shiver from nervousness or anxiety. I am scared...
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The Unsaid Thoughts
PoetryThis book is a collection of my free verse poetry, written in both Tamil and English. I usually write when I'm sad, and it helps me overcome those feelings. Writing poetry is my coping mechanism. These poems are my raw emotions and thoughts, unspoke...
